Tempest with Self...

Hi ppl! Hope u guys had a good weekend. My weekend was quite bland. I had a handful of plans lined up - but all that i managed to do was go jogging and tighten up my muscles. Oh dear! I am now on "loosening up" excercise. Its giving me hell loads of pain that i am unable to walk a few steps or even sit down in peace. Believe me, its a real torture!


More than a week has passed by since i sat down in harmony with my mind and books. They simply dunt seem to cooperate. Well, today my tolerance level touched its zenith. This is not the first time in life that i feel pissed off with my own self and its not a feeling i enjoy having. Of course not! But still, i have been stupid enough to get to this state of mind. Haven't i?? It makes me wonder if i ever managed to learn anything worth-while from my previous experience. How crazy can that get?


It isnt uncommon that at the end of a week, i find myself having done nothing useful. But the guilt that gets me to the task at one point of time, is still inert. It makes me ponder why.


Where is that me that once was? What does this indifference to work mean? Why is it that deadlines seem to matter so less? Is it that i am so confident about getting done with it in the last moment? Where is that dream that i thought was driving my life? Have i put it on hibernation at the wrong time? Or is it that i am not serious enough about my goals in life? Where is all the self motivation i tried to give myself? Was it just an illution? Or am i trying to do something that is beyond my calibre? Have i taken the wrong decision in life? Anyways, now that i am halfway across the journey, it isnt wise to turn back or repent. I feel i have given enough and more space to the lazy bug in me. Its high time i get to some serious work. Else things can get messy and there can be nothing but calamity. I have no justifications for not working. No more sympathies! I am off for now!


Take care guys.. hope all of us have a neat week ahead...i am hoping that i can get cheerful soon...hugggzzzzzzzzzzzz!


P.S. : I seriosuly wish i could tell u about all the fun i had this diwali. But, my current state of mind is too preoccupied, that it wishes to confess its misbehaviour. Lets hope this confession can get it to work. I shall soon strike back with my usual "straight-from-the-heart" and "bubbly" posts! Promise! :)

Neither here, nor there!

************************************************

Its that time in life -

When those that are sweet to the heart, are not so to the mind.

When thoughts from the same soul seem cantankerous.

When salt and pepper looks are hard to be hidden.

When the bubbling energy seems so muffled.

When anything childish speaks of insanity.

When the fuming enthusiasm is poise.

When ignorance is unaccpetable.

When truth is lucidly raw.

Its also that time in life -

When peril means challenge.

When the chaos is just too exciting.

When work is 'dreams under construction'.

When vivacious still sounds an understatement.

When the silence is so deafening and full of meaning.

When responsibilities seem heavy and come crashing down.

When trying to feign innocence seems a wonderful adventure.

When the world seems so bland, yet so bold, bright and beautiful.

************************************************

This is that time in life when pandemonium prevails. I feel distorted, lost, confused. A tempest rages within myself - To conquer the unseen, the unheard, the untouched and the unknown. To taste the elixir of life. Its when i try to paint maturity in every thought and attitude. Immaturity seems to breed self-contempt. Well, if these are what they call "growing up", then, i can feel the pristine splendor of this mayhem attack me!!!

Will i ever grow up?!?!

Helllllooo peoplessss!!! How u guys doin???? Hope u guys are gettin ready to rock diwali this year!!! Am as excited as ever to welcome diwali. Strange as it may seem, i have so many plans for diwali. But ironical enough, i am clueless about what i am goin to do!!! Haha!! Oki, before i start off with the topic of the blog, here goes this week's highlights....

1> I put up a decent show in my molecular biology exam!!!! Atleast, i think i did good for the effort i had put in.. usually, i get pissed off when my efforts dunt pay off (anyone does for that matter)..but this time, i was indeed happy with myself that i got moa an icecream!!! Haha!! cute huh???


2> After a long time in the history of my exam preparations, i finished preparing for 2moro's stats exam 19 hours ahead of time!!! I guess the last time i did such a thing was when i was in class 5!!! Proabably, its all stats prof's influence now!! :D


3> As diwali is fast approaching, i thot i would clean up my room and do my laundry much sooner than i usually do! Unfortunately, to do laundry, we need 20 cents for activating the washing machine and the drier, which i didnt have!! Thanks to the vending machine in the common room, i exchanged my 10 cents for 20 cents!!! (*this is a secret many juniors in university dunno!!! so finger on your lips!!!*) Then, after washing, i found to my horror that no drier was working!!! Shit thing!!! Later, i had to steal the clothes line stand from the kitchen. I silently sneaked it into my room, only to find that it was broken!!! No wonder, somebody had dumped it in the kitchen!!! Still, i managed to make it stand in one unstable equilibrium! I had to skillfully hang the clothes alternately on both sides, so that it balances!!! I carefully managed to hang the didnt-wash-me-for-more-than-a-month jeans so that it doesnt disturb the existing precarious setup. Anyways, now its all dryin up.. so lets keep fingers crossed!!! LOL!!


Oki, now enough of my mundane stuff... Let me get to the topic...


Two weeks ago, i bought kellogg's choco balls and frosties. Now, dunt ask me wats so great abt that. Jus listen up! So, yeah.. as usual , one evening, i opened the choco balls pack to munch while studying! :P Little did i know i had a surprise inside! I found a cute smiley spoon in that!!! I got sooooo bloody excited that i immediately started using that for eating breakfast, lunch, dinner, supper, chips - practically everything. The next morning, i opened frosties for breakfast and i found another smiley spoon there!!! WooooW!!! Super cool na!!!

I collected 2 colours.. got to collect the other 2 colour spoons - blue and red!!! :D

I know all this sounds quite insane from a girl who is slowly going to slip outta her teens in a few months time. But, i am this weird combo, who is a total freak for cosmetics on one side and on the other, loves anything that is kids stuff!!!!! When at home, we used to get such kiddo stuff for free (when i buy biscuits or chocis!!!). Usually, i never got a chance to keep them for myself. Mom and dad felt it was too stupid of me to play with such stuff and they used to pass it on to my other younger cousins! I wouldnt mind that tho! But i remember collecting tazo's that used to be given with ruffles lays!!! I collected so many that my cuzns got jealous. One day when i was away to skol, they took the whole pack from my home. I was searching for it all over the house. I even suspected my mother for throwing them away in the name of cleaning my shelf! Later, when i went to my cuzn's place, i found all my prized collections there!!!


Apart from the my interest in such goodies, i am this character who digs into her dad's travel bag and suitcase when he returns from a tour! I am such a selfish soul that i dunt even bother to ask him about his trip. But of course, i am kind enough to snatch the heavy bag, unpack it for him and check if he has got me anything!!! :P With a dad who travels a lot, i know exactly wat to look for when he returns from his tour! If he is gettin bk from cochin - banana chips, madurai - lovely jasmine (for mom!! :P), bombay - some books for me(this was during harry potter season-pirated books!!), pune - bakarwadi, delhi - some nice tops, lucknow - chicken work salwar!!! Apart from these if he travels by flight, then first thing that i look for are the dairy creamer packets!!! :P


This reminds me of my dad's first visit to Europe. This was when i was in primary school. While everyone in our family were anxious and a bit worried about his first overseas travel, i was one kid who was totally excited about the whole thing! It was rather a matter of pride for me to boast to my frnds - "Hey, u know wat??? My appa is goin to Europe! Jolly!! He said he will get me lots of chocolates. Dunt tell anyone oki.. i will bring some to skol and share with you during biscuit break!!!" (*i used to wink at them after that!!*) Yeah!!! One week later, he returned at around 3-4am in the morning! And i was wide awake, not to welcome him, but his suitcase!!! But guess what??? He did get lots of chocolates. But sadly, enough, i was expecting that he get me some soft toys, but he got me one piggy that would skip!!! He also got an octopus clock!!! Yeakkssss!!! So scary it was!! OMG!!! I then felt i was a "big girl" to be playing with a pig that would go around the house skippin if switched on!!! For heaven's sake, i cant tell my frnds about his piggy that dad so lovingly got for me! I was sooo upset that day!!! I was like, "Appa, in London, arent there any soft toys?? Y of all the things u got me this pig??? My frnds will mock at me if i tell them u got me a piggy!! I dunt like it at all.. go to london again n get me somthing else!!!" Poor thing!!! Only now can i understand how bad he would have felt to hear those words from me! Every cuzn of mine born after me has played with that piggy!!! Now, my 1 year old neice plays wid it too!!! Frankly, i meddle wid it when i go home!!! :D


Today, i am miles away to even think of digging into my dad's suitcase when he returns from a tour. But, whenever i chat with him, he does tell me that he has all the diary creamer packets saved for me in the fridge!!! "Sooo cute!!!" This is wat makes me feel if i will ever grow up!!! Last year, around the same time was my first diwali in s'pore and away from my family. The very same day, a year ago, my dad and mom sent me a gift for diwali along with a letter. It was the first hand written letter from my mother!! :) Truely amazing!!!


I dunno y i suddenly got so senti. But yeah, another diwali away from home reminded me of these incidents. So, jus felt like sharing this with you guys.. hope i didnt bore u too much. I shall stop here.. Me looking forward for a wonderful diwali with frnds!! I leave u guys with my warm diwali wishes!! Have a colourful, happy and safe diwali!!! Have a blast and enjoy yourselves!!! take care.. huggggzzzzzzzzzz!!!! :)

p.s. : shall try to post pics of the piggy and octopus clock in my next post! :)

When thoughts are just wishes...

Wish i can hold ur hand and walk along... like the walk to icecream parlour

Wish i can hear those encouraging words... as u lift me up from low spirits

Wish i can take you out in our car... while i drive n u jus sit back (tensed :P)

Wish i can be unwrapped from this virtual connection... (for a change, internet sucks)


Wish i can taste the flavour of your fingers... when u feed me

Wish i can feel the warmth of your lap... when i rest on u

Wish i can see the joy in your eyes... when we meet again

Wish i can just be there... with u... at home...




Stressed. Dejected. Home sick. Badly wanting to see my parents...

Am counting down days to catch my flight back home... till then, lets hope things go well.. Diwali is comin up soon.. not yet got new dress... no plans.. once i am done with my stats exam on 20th evening.. things will fall in place... Anyways... am still the motivated and enthu kid around in university in spite of all the commotion... am happy with myself in that sense... gaining inspiration from thy self! That's exactly wat keeps me goin thru such tuf times... Life suddenly seems to be pickin up pace... and i am enjoying the run.. Join along peps!!!!!!! :) hugggggzzzzzzzzzz!!!! Will catch ya guys soon.... :)

Acute HyperTAGosemia!

Yalo peps! Hope u guys are having a good week. I have been running around with classes and almost 6 hours of lab everyday. Gettin me really tired. Yesterday, i was in the lab from 11am until 8.30pm, with a break of 2 hours - to meet my mentor and to have tea! OMG, i got so restless at the end of the day. I couldnt wait to shove away my shoes and pull my legs outta the socks!!! But anyways, i thoroughly enjoyed working! So no regrets :)

With regards to my prev tag post, i was wondering, if there is something really weird about me. And lo, i did manage to squeeze these outta my drained brain. Here are a few more -

<1> I have the habit of combing my hair, washing my hands and face before going to bed every night. Its like i am dressing up to get into my world of trance.

<2> Of late, i have developed this obsession for tea that, i cant manage to get to bed in the night without having a glass of tea! (all these days i have been thinking that tea makes u brisk!!)

<3> However f***ing hot the climate be, my shower will always be with warm water. My dad comes out sweating if he gets into the bathroom after i have had my shower!!!

<4> When i get angry or frustrated (which happens very rarely nowadays), i need to push down stuff. Like, at home, i used to push down all the vessels from the kitchen or scatter the newpaper on the floor! But mom had to clean up the place!

Hehe :) So, that's also another side of me!!! And here are the other 2 tags...

Tagged by Krithika -

1)Are you happy/satisfied with your blog with it's content and look?
Absolutely! I love it! Anyways, if i wanted a change, i mite prefer a pink template with flowers and butterflies and lakes and chocolates and icecreams!!

2) Does your family know about your blog?
Yeah, they do! My dad even posted an anony comment in my post about singlish!

3) Do you feel embarrassed to let your friends know about your blog or you just consider it as a private thing?
Not at all - i am happy to share my thoughts with them. If i thot my posts were so private that even my friends are not allowed to read them, i wouldnt be blogging in a public portal like this.

4) Did blogs cause positive changes in your thoughts?
Of course! Loads! Tons!

5) Do you only open the blogs of those who comment on your blog or you love to go and discover more by yourself?
Usually, i stick to my blogrolled list. Occasionally, when i am bored, i visit new blogs.

6) Did you try to imagine your fellow bloggers and give them real pictures?
Nopes! Its a virtual world for me. I feel, relate and see though their words and thoughts. But one day, i hope to meet them eye-to-eye.

7) Admit. Do you think there is a real benefit for blogging?
For me - YES! It is all in the individual's attitude.

8) Do you think that bloggers society is isolated from real world or interacts with events?
What does the question mean? What events? I believe that i am currently living in two worlds - the real and the virtual. While blogging, i bring my real world into the virtual. Dats it!

9) Does criticism annoy you or do you feel it's a normal thing?
I dunt mind being criticised. But, sometimes, i jus dunt care about it. I am what i am and people are what they are! If every one of us thought the same way, there is no variety in life. No spice.

10) Do you fear of some political blogs and avoid them?
I dont fear them. I avoid them for sure! I hate politics.

11) Did you get shocked by the arrest of some bloggers?
This in itself is a shocking news to me.

12) Did you think about what will happen to your blog after you die?
Nopes! I dont want to think about it. Even if i were to think, all that comes to my mind is this - after i die, somebody mite come down to my blog, read my post, comment and wait for me to reply. When they find my space idle for more than a week, they mite even ping me and say "Update plz!" :P

13) What do you like to hear? What's the song you like to put its link in your blog?
Kadhal Sadugudu from Alaipayuthe - my all time favourite!

14) Five bloggers to be the next "victims"?
Will let know later in comment section!

Tagged by Has to be me -

3 Smells I love:
> the aroma of mom's food
> jhonson's baby powder, soap
> intoxicating smell of the earth when it begins to rain

3 Smells I hate:
> smell of anything non-veggie being cooked, esp. fish and chicken
> durian
> sweaty bad body odour

3 Jobs that I have had in my life:
> class leader
> cupboard leader
> math n science secretary

3 Movies that I could watch over and over:
> My Girl
> Devdas
> Alaipayuthe

3 Fond memories:
> When i got admission into NUS
> When my parents proudly posed for a pic with me when i got the award for best out going student from class 12
> When my neice Aditi was born

3 Jobs I would love to have:
> Work as research assistant in a stem cell lab
> Teacher for primary and seconday skol kids
> Being a mother (i know it aint a job, its goin to be fun and quite tricky!)

3 Things I like to do:
> To listen to good music and sing along
> Sit by the beachside, watch the waves, hear them talk to me and enjoy the fresh air.
> Freak out with my family

3 Of my favorite foods:
> Mom's rasam rice
> Dad's vethakozhambu
> Of course, pav bhaaji, masala tea, butterscotch icecream and ferero rocher chocolates!

3 Places I would like to be right now:
> My home in Chennai
> On top of the icecapped Alps
> Stem cell lab!
(*btw, can i be in 3 places at the same time???*)

3 Things that make me cry:
> When i feel desperate to talk or see someone
> When i work hard and it doesnt give me the deserved result
> When i feel homesick

Ahhhhhhhhhhh!! That ends it. I am now cured of my acute hyperTAGosemia!!! Since i am in a super cool mood, i aint taggin anyone. However, watch out! I mite come down to ur blog and tag you!!! :P So peps.. take care. have fun and enjoy your weekend!!! :) tataaaaaaaaaaaaa... and huggggggggzzzzzzzzzzz!!! :)

Hey Hey!! This is me!!! :)

Yealooooo guys n gals!!! Stricking back again with tag!!! This time tagged by Ganesh. So here it goes...

Those 6 things that I feel makes me weird, yet keeps me myself (btw, weird is a relative term) -

<1> Mood-swing : One moment i can be sooo hyper and the very next, i can get so moody, that a tear will jus trickle down my cheek, when u had least expected it!! And yeah, once again start giggling with tears still rolling down!!! Oh my gawddddd!!! Can i ever get over thisssssssss!!!

<2> Only guilt gets me to work : When i dont have the mood to study or work, i simply dont. Period. This can go on for days. For that matter, even until the day b4 exam. When i realise that i have freaked out enough and i begin to feel myself literally chocked out of guilt, i get to work!! And when i do get to work, i care the damn about the rest of the world. If not for deadlines, i would be gettin nowhere.

<3> The soft corner : I am this love maniac. If u shower me with love and care, be a good friend to me, i will be such an awesome friend, the sweetest u would have ever had. Even when u ditch me, i will have a soft corner for u. U mite be angry wid me for days, u mite not even talk to me. I will force to keep myself away from u, if u wish that way. Finally, when one day, u come back to me and smile, i will be the first person to hug u and feel best to have got u back into my life, no matter how harsh u have been to me in the past. I dunno from where i will got this attitude. Sometimes, it takes me for a ride. "If u enter my life, u are to be here forever" - That's my whole logic of a relationship. So, ultimately, i am very choosy about my friends. If i feel that i mite not be able to give my true self to the relationship, i nip it off at the bud - a soft smile is the best i can offer.

<4> Hard core perfectionist : I am such a sucker at this. I always look to perfectly crafting watever i do. When it comes to keepin the room clean, even a pen cant cant get outta place. I can get u a safety pin, when my room is pitch dark. Again, this is a triat i believe, has genetically travelled from my parents. Of course, i set my own perfection standards. Sometimes, i jus feel, i am demanding too much from myself. When it comes to exams, i got to know each n every syllable in the notes and the text, else, i get totally pissed off. This now seems quite difficult in university - so again, another struggle.

<5> Monotony kills : Anything that is monotonous can suck the life outta me. This mite be common for many. But in the future i cant imagine a life wherein i simply wakeup-cook-eat-rush to work-get back home-cook-eat-sleep. I need a break at least once in 2 days!!! Right from changing my nick or profile image in yahoo/msn messenger every 3rd day, to looking at a challenging work pattern, i hafto break the monotony. This is what adds life its spice and the zest! :)

<6> Sporty gal: Name a sport, teach me if i dunt know to play, and i will grasp it in a jiffy. Sometimes, i feel, i would have done better as an athlete than as a student of science. At the end of the day, i guess i will be playin around with some bacteria, viruses or stem cells!!! LOL!!!

Too add to all these weird attitude thingies, i have this physically wierd stuff. I eat like a glutton. With one look at me, no one would believe that i eat so much. When u jus begin to think, "Ah, she is damn full. now she gotto stop munching something", i am sorry to say, but u got me wrong. I will still be hungry. In some corner of my tummy, i will still have place to insert a scoop of butterscotch icecream. My metabolism rate is dangerously high. Some of u mite even get jealous if u tell u that my daily diet includes corn flakes with one mug milk and nuts, 1 mug of chocolate milk(strictly extra cream milk), 1 mug tea, one cup of rice(includes high fat curd rice), one veggie, one fruit, 3 cheese dosas, one boiled egg, boiled american corn, one mug juice, 3 bars of hazel nut chocolate, one scoop icecream, and still, i manage to get no fat under my skin. Eating like this for the past 2 months, and i was only able to stuff myself with a rise of 2 kgs - all the calcium went to my bones and i am still the same healthily-thin-and-tall girl. Again, its in my genes!!! But now, i am happy the way i am... only then can i jump and kick and roll and do all sorts fo crazy things na!?!?! :D

That ends the weird stuff about me. I guess u can discover some more weirdo stuff if u get a chance to meet and interact wid moa!! :P

And guys... guess wat??? I went bowling last saturday!!!! My first experience!!! :D



Whoaaaaaaaaa!!! It was awesome. The first time i bowled, i struck 8. In my 7th round of the first game, i had a full strike!!!! Whoaaaaa..i literally jumped up to the roof punchin the air hard with my fist!!! I got soo bloody excited. OMG!!! My friends couldnt believe it was my first bowling experience and they went on teasing me to the fact that is was just beginner's luck. But then, when the guys were pleading with us girls for another game, my finger was the first to go up. And guess what? i did much better in my second game!! No more beginner's luck i tell u. Pure talent!!! As i mentioned before, i ought to have taken up a career in sports!!

As soon as i saw a PINK ball, i wanted a foto wid me holdin it!!! OMG, when i tried to lift it, it was unexpectedly heavy and oops, it mite have landed on my foot, if not not for my quick reflexes.

Oki, then we paid up for another game and began to play with teams. Though my thumb was beginning to swell and hurt, i still managed to get 3 straight strikes!!! Man, in the group of 7 of us, i managed to come 3rd!! Not bad for a freshie han???!! Our team lost by a mere 7 points, but still, i beat my friend on the one-to-one bet that we personally had!!! :D Super cool!!! Then after bowling, we went for a massage. It was this cosy easy-chair sort of thing, where v had to put in $1 and it would begin to massage, or for me - TICKLE!!! Sh** man!!! Instead of relaxing my muscles and soothing my body pain, it managed to perfectly tickle every ounce of flesh. I was wriggling on the chair, making all sorts of crazy noises. I was laughin like a maniac and the worst part was that, my friends managed to video tape all that i was doing!!! OMG!!! I looked so funny!!! And when at last, the so-called massage was over, i ought to have been feeling relaxed and refreshed, instead i was so damn tired and my muscles were still giggling for all the acupuncture therapy they got!!!

Oki, that ends my series of freak outs i had this weekend. From now on, i am plannin to lessen my shopping for clothes and cosmetics. Instead, me gonna go bowling... anyone wanna join meeeeeeeee??????

Let's talk cock* meh!!

Hello peoples!!! Nice to see u guys so soon!!! Hope u had an awesome week. I badly wanted a break from my books and so, here i am sooner than expected!!! But, guys, i am sorry to say that i havnt yet got my confirmation about the good news. I am as anxious and excited as u are...but good things dunt come so easy rite.. so lets jus have our fingers crossed and wait for the D-day!!! :)

Its been almost more than a year since i have settled in singapore and i would be doing no justice if i fail to learn the local singlish here. Yeah, i am gettin a hold of it all!! Its actually fun to speak with local singaporeans in their own language - simple, easy and gramatically less demanding. Nowadays, within indians ourselves, conversing in singlish has become some sort of a fun-factor. It reminds of me of my school days, when we used to have our own school language and boast about it all to our neighbours and cousins who were in different schools. Now, even in university, this gang of about 5-6 of us have been actively propagating our school's language!!! :P Here are some slangs we commonly use -


>> When we got to say a hi - "Yalo the!!"
>> When we are cheering someone, or encouraging - "Come the!!"
>> While trying to capture the attention of a crowd - "Yalo peoples!!! Listen up!! "


Am not goin to let out anything more, for we are currently working on patenting this. Once we get our patent approved, i shall share some more!! :P

Oki, now for some singlish... i have borrowed this from one of my friends.. hope he doesnt mind it.. even if he does... i am sure he has not yet patented it.. so i aint gonna get caught in singapore's strict plagiarism rules!! :) So, here they go...


>> When someone offers a favour, the other casually rejects saying, "Its okay lah!!"
>> When enquring if we can enter through a door or not - "Can pass or not??"
>> When trying to make the other person feel at home - "Dont shy shy lah."
>> While rejecting or declining an offer - "Doe waan!!"
>> When something cannot be done - "Cannot lah!"
>> When u are stuck in the middle of any matter, thinking about wat to do next, the other person asks - "So how??"
>> When trying to wind up any matter - "So, lets see how lah."
>> When you have completed some assignment - "I finish oreddy."
>> When you have lots of work piled up, then your condition is - "Die-die"
>> When you have not told the other person something, the other guy says - "You neva told me what!!"
>> When you want to ask if this bus has got ac - "This bus got aircon or not?"
>> When someone is staring at u for quite sometime - "Stare what stare??"




So, thats just a pinch of the singlish that i have begun to use quite frequently... :) At the same time, i make sure, i maintain my individuality and originality in the way i speak english. Ultiamtely, i got to be what i am. :P Now, u guys do add on if u have something interesting to share about such slangs... :) i will be back with good news and some other updates about all thats happening out here in university... till then.. take care and have an blast this weekend.. huggggggggzzzzzzzzzzzz!!! :)

*talking cock, in singlish means, talkin nonsense. :)

Revival....

Yalooooooooooo peoples!!!!!!!! OMG, am back after a really loooong time!!! Missed u guys tons!!! Hope u guys are doing good. I have sooooo many things to tell u and exams and assignments have been brutally snatching away my time!! :'( Also, blogger has been giving me problems, so cudnt update any sooner! Plz echuse moa lah!!! :P In the midst of all the academic work, i had to attend rehearsals for an orchestral performance on saturday!!!! Yeahhhhhhh!!! We did a good job and I was really exited about the whole thing. The only issue that was pulling down my spirits was the thought that I had to carry myself in a sari. I had to drastically change my usual quick paced steps to soft ones, and stop jumping around to show off my pony dangling behind. However, I managed to carry myself much better than I imagined. Still my friends went around teasing me, 'coz they thought I was still looking like a kiddo in the sari!!! :P

Ok.. now to the most important matter of the week. This single new development has been the drive that has kept me going through monotonous hours of sitting in front of my books, trying to mug the names of enzymes and proteins. Yeahhhhhhhhhhh.... remember me telling you guys about this cuzn of mine, for whom we were looking for a girl??? Yeah yeah.. the same!!! Last Sunday, my family went down to the girl's place and the girl and my cuzn have agreed to the marriage proposal!!! Whoaaaaaaaaa!!! It all happened in a matter of less than a day. Can u believe that??? For heaven's sake i could hardly take it all in. The worst part was that i had to work in the lab last Sunday when my family were down there at my place enjoying the day. Being miles away from home can be such a pain at instances like these. I was sooooo desperate to get back home that i would not have cared if i had to swim all the way across the sea from here to india!!!

OMG... i was soooo restless. I was nagging my friend, asking her - if my cuzn wud have been in jeans or formals, if he would have gone clean shaven or with a french beard, what he mite talk to the girl, if the girl would also wear jeans and come with us to the beach and spencer plaza, if my cuz's love and care for me would change after his marriage, if he would still take me in his bike to our favourite hangout - the icecream parlour and marina beach. Yeah, as much as i was excited about the wedding bells, it made me equally apprehensive about how things mite change in a few months after the entry of this girl into our family. Of course, I have to convince myself to the truth that this new girl will share more liberty, more love, and more attention with my cuzn than I will. I am not too sure how to react to the whole turnover of events. But, it sure does make me feel quite insecure and lonely. I hope he has a wonderful beginnning to this new phase of life. I am sure he will rock as usual and i will always be there for him, as his sweet little sister :)

These apart, monday's exam was a total disaster. I literally slogged to get stuff into my head. Biochemistry. OMG. It has never been "my-kinda-thing", especially ‘coz it requires that i memorize. What I call the “exam-flunk” trauma has been haunting me until last nite. I was tryin to analyse wat had gone wrong. Did I do badly ‘coz the paper was tuf??? Was the paper tuf for all??? Was it ‘coz I didn’t put in enuf??? Or ‘coz I lacked the concentration??? Or ‘coz my lack of interest pulled me down??? I wasn’t overconfident. Probably, I was just too stressed. Untimely eating habits and insufficient sleep never do good. When the mind and heart seem so out of place, one cute movie, a lovely walk in a lonely road amidst the silence of the night and a few thoughtful words can work wonders. And it surely did. And to feel that someone takes the trouble and care to get me back to this ecstatic mood is all the more heart warming. I feel as though i have revived the lost-me. Agressively motivated. Exploding with energy. And as i always say - incurably optimistic!

I have one awesome news to tell u guys - almost like a dream come true. But i need to hold it back for a little while. Once it is confirmed, u will be the first ones to get the news!!! So, till then, keep guessing... i shall be back soon with lots to tell u... Take care... Keep smiling.. Life is not all that bad afterall...It is so much fun!!! Hugggggggggggzzzzzzzzzzz n Maaaaaaaaackkkkkkssssssssssss come your way from meeeeeeeeeeee!!! :)