Monday, October 30, 2006

Tempest with Self...


Hi ppl! Hope u guys had a good weekend. My weekend was quite bland. I had a handful of plans lined up - but all that i managed to do was go jogging and tighten up my muscles. Oh dear! I am now on "loosening up" excercise. Its giving me hell loads of pain that i am unable to walk a few steps or even sit down in peace. Believe me, its a real torture!


More than a week has passed by since i sat down in harmony with my mind and books. They simply dunt seem to cooperate. Well, today my tolerance level touched its zenith. This is not the first time in life that i feel pissed off with my own self and its not a feeling i enjoy having. Of course not! But still, i have been stupid enough to get to this state of mind. Haven't i?? It makes me wonder if i ever managed to learn anything worth-while from my previous experience. How crazy can that get?


It isnt uncommon that at the end of a week, i find myself having done nothing useful. But the guilt that gets me to the task at one point of time, is still inert. It makes me ponder why.


Where is that me that once was? What does this indifference to work mean? Why is it that deadlines seem to matter so less? Is it that i am so confident about getting done with it in the last moment? Where is that dream that i thought was driving my life? Have i put it on hibernation at the wrong time? Or is it that i am not serious enough about my goals in life? Where is all the self motivation i tried to give myself? Was it just an illution? Or am i trying to do something that is beyond my calibre? Have i taken the wrong decision in life? Anyways, now that i am halfway across the journey, it isnt wise to turn back or repent. I feel i have given enough and more space to the lazy bug in me. Its high time i get to some serious work. Else things can get messy and there can be nothing but calamity. I have no justifications for not working.
No more sympathies! I am off for now!


Take care guys.. hope all of us have a neat week ahead...i am hoping that i can get cheerful soon...hugggzzzzzzzzzzzz!


P.S. : I seriosuly wish i could tell u about all the fun i had this diwali. But, my current state of mind is too preoccupied, that it wishes to confess its misbehaviour. Lets hope this confession can get it to work. I shall soon strike back with my usual "straight-from-the-heart" and "bubbly" posts! Promise! :)


31 comments:

Subramanian Ramachandran said...

regular ah pannama eppana exercise panna udambu tight aagi ipadi than paduthum..... athu polave regular ah padikkama eppana padichalum brain cells tight aagi padikka vidama frustrate pannum :) relax , chill and start all over again..remember the empty the tea cup story? empty your tea cup

Subramanian Ramachandran said...

oh yea atlast i managed to put a first comment :D

brute said...

hmmm i have answers for all ur questions.... but i'll not ans this time because it's u who hafta struggle ultimately... never regret doing things...enjoy watever u do... feeeling guilty is ok but not always it'll kill u one day... keep smiling ...and wish u a productive week...[:)]

Anonymous said...

hey slack at work means ur getting better at it! serious girl.. its only whn u know that u can get it done that ur chill abt it.. also, take a break gal.. ur sem is almost over now.. dont worry abt it.. it'l all sort out before u leave to india again!
now cheer up and get back to studying!

take care.
love,
P.

Prasanna Parameswaran said...

சரி பார்த்து இருங்க! இப்படியே ரோட்டுல எதாவது யோசிச்சிட்டு எங்கயாவது போயிடாதீங்க!
hows this comment - a small one so that u cant start reading tamil faster! :)

Venkatesh said...

Hey Prithz.. you should try to go to the gym regularly.. you will not feel the pain after the first few days.. it is important to workout atleast 2-3 days a week..

these kind of thoughts / state of mind are part of life.. everyone has experienced this at some point in life.. I am pretty sure you will be out of this soon -- forged, wise, and nobel.. good luck discovering the fire in yourself..

Ramya Shankar said...

Come on Preethi, it happens to all. The only difference lies between the ones who realise it and correct it !
Chill, now take a deeeeeeeeeep breath and look at that book again ! Helps?

KK said...

Hey Prithz!!! Howdy??? :)
Chill it man... just relax.. its difficult to do something unless you are cool and composed. So just relax and put down a to-do list with a deadline and try to meet the deadlines.. will bring you back on schedule. Body pain will be there if you exercise suddenly, try being regular :)

Unknown said...

hope u are fine now.

appurom exam adutha maasam dhaane? Hmm.. innum time irukkula? You can cover the portions in that time.

All the best for ur exams...

Himavan said...

Hey how is you? Well its bit of lazyness that kills us sometime. Motivation isn't a problem just keeping it going all the time is the key thing. Figure it out and work well! I know you can ...All the Best!

Cheers!

gils said...

hey..dont stop ur gymming...vali neriya varathunala thaan valimainu peru (huh...gils..epdida ithelaam...ennamo poda)...dont stop...keep doing..u wud get used to it...as for studies...nee sonathellathaiyum v can sum up in 4 letters...LAZY...on the positive front S0ul sonna mathiriyum irukalam... :D..cmon...buck up and be like ur usual self :) *CHEERS*

Sudarshan said...

Hey hows u been?:-)

Well like you, I too have useless weekends and weeks...days & weeks on which nothing useful is done!!

Particularly now, in the final year,I've picked up this ugly habit:learning exactly ONE day before the exam. I somehoe seem to be enjoying the intense pressure lol..and I've scored pretty good marks so far..but this thing won't work!!

We always set deadlines, but I'm sure we fail to achieve most of them..there's nothing wrong in that..:-)

Unknown said...

@ R.S.

remember the empty the tea cup story? empty your tea cup


eppa inna oru thathuvam! :)

Preethi, ketuko... nalla ketuko... empty your tea cup... and u will be alright! :)

Priya said...

Don't strain a lot and relax in warm water if you can spa.

Take rest and u will be back bouncing:-))

gils said...

:( una solitu..me with leg cramps...nethu konjam overa oditen...yaar koodanulaam kekapdaathaakum :D

Ganesh Ranganathan said...

enna prithz? Yen blog pakkame vararthu illai?? ethathu kovama?

Why so down? Dontcha worry...things don't get better by worrying about them...

Anonymous said...

Oi prithz..

i can clearly understand from tis post tat u r all set to start studying for ur exams in full steam ..do tat!(il try to do it too!)

Gud luck..Work NOW - not today, not tomorrow!

Prad

PS: huh.. bread upma pic?!?

Has to be me said...

Aadi-kku orutharavay, ammavasaikku orutharavay exercise pannina apadithan irrukum!
Just chill & enjoy the other good times! :)

Priyankari said...

It's a part of life and a passing phase. I guess everybody passes through such a phase at times in life. So don't worry and just becheerful:)

Ekta said...

boy..i have had so many weeks of inertia that i cant even start to talk about it...guess I have just become used to the state of "doing nothing":-)!

Arunkumar said...

hey,
hope u r back with a bang this week :)

Syam said...

prithz jim ella ethuku...already u r too thin...athu ellam romba fat irukavanga panrathu :-)

Syam said...

hope everything is fine now...aama enga usual photo missing indha post la :-)

KK said...

Y this anti-chocolate profile image???

Anonymous said...

kk-anti-chocolate? dude, ths is pro chocolate as in pri's demanding the opponent to drop the choc (kinda like .. drop the gun and no body gets hurt).. and so she can have it and no ones hurt.. right pri?

Anonymous said...

kk-anti-chocolate? dude, ths is pro chocolate as in pri's demanding the opponent to drop the choc (kinda like .. drop the gun and no body gets hurt).. and so she can have it and no ones hurt.. right pri?

Unknown said...

pri's demanding the opponent to drop the choc (kinda like .. drop the gun and no body gets hurt).. and so she can have it and no ones hurt.. right pri?

but when the choc is dropped doesn't it get unfit for consumption?

KK, ungala kaapathiten.... :)

KK said...

She will have it... then what will I have???

BSK - Super!!!! Snatch a chocolate from Prtihz :)

prithz said...

@ r.subramanian:

Hmm.. innume regular ah excercise pandrean :D

Empty tea cup ah??? Hmm.. edho konjam konjam can remember!! :P

first comment ku india vandhu oru surprise tharean :)

@ brute:

yeah, i love the work i do.. but its jus the starting prob! :) thnx..hope u had a good week too!

@ s0ul:

Hey P,

thnx a ton girl!! Hugggzzz!! :)

Gotten into work alridi!! and yeah, u go the choc thingie rite!! Hi5!!!

@ indianangel:

Haha! Avlo loosa naan innum aala prasanna!!!

@ venkatesh:

Yeah! thnx a lot dr.!! Since i walk around a lot, i ahve neverfelt the necessity for excercise.. but form now on, guess i must work out a bit!

N yeah, i cud relate to ur wordsw of wisdom.. they have enlightened me for sure:)

@ ramya:

Hey thnx di!!! am sure a bit of deep breathing exercise wud help.Will try it out!! :)

@ kk:

Thnx KK!! Am more chill now!! :) n yeah, will work out more reguarly... :D

n reg choc thingie, s0ul was rite!! no share wid anyone.. choc n icecream na naa konjam selfish dhan!!! :D so, for u only choc wrapper!! :P

@ karthik b.s.:

Yeah, exams this month end.. but still, i want to be well prepared ahead of time :)

All the best for ur exams also! Do well! :)

@ contented:

Thnx a lot yaar! Am sure i can get the motivation n confidence keep me goin! :) Thnx for those lovely words. Cheers!

@ gils:

thnx gils! neenga sonna maadiri will try to be regular! :) n studies is goin on fine now! so no worries! :)

@ sudarshan:

Hey! i am fine! how u doing??? hope ur exams went well! how is quizzing goin on???

Well, deadlines is wat beings all the fin n excitement in life.. so i am pretty oki with it... thats wat can get u to work!!:)

@ priya:

Well yeah, i take a warm shower b4 i get to work! that does help! :) thnx a lot priya! :)

@ ganesh:

Hey, angry laam edhuvum illa.. i ahvent been visiting most of the blogs.. :( a bit held up wid books..

am fine now.. gettin work outta me :P

@ praddy:

hey. good da... the prospect of meeting all u guys is wat is keepin me goin thru this tuf time.. am really lookin forward to it!!

all the best for ur exams da!! am sure u will do well(as usual)! :P

bread upma pic nee chat varumbhoodhu kaamikarean :P

@ has to be me:

Amma solra maadiri oru dialog ah nachchunu sollitinga!!! :P

Thnx a lot for ur wishes! :)

@ priyankari:

Thnx a lot girl!!! am feeling much better n cheerful now :)

@ ekta:

Haha!! dutn worry.. u will be fine :) trust me.. its temporary!

@ arunkumar:

Hey, thnx a lot! n welcome to my blog!! :)

@ syam:

Haha! apdi illa syam breather.. i want to work out to get some active activity!! :P avlodhan!

n yeah, i was soo pissed off dat i didnt have the patience to search for a fitting foto for this post! :P

prithz said...

@ all:

Thnx a ton people!!! Your words of wisdom n motivation surely did keep me goin this week! I started off pretty well.. jus need to increase my pace :) Am better off n now more "myself" now!!! hope to strike bk soon wid my usual posts!! till then.. take care.. n have fun...hugggzzzz!

Cheers & Love,

prithz...

gils said...

@kk:
naan solrathukulla s0ul munthiktaanga :D