Hello people!!! I know i am back sooner than i had promised. But, as u are well aware by now, my patience takes a back seat when it comes to blogging and telling you guys something. So, here i am. This time, i am sorry to tell you guys that i dont have any good news to pass on. Infact, the very reason why i pounced back here is b'coz of monday morning bluez!!! Just when i was pleased with the fact that i had done one of my best preparations for the presentation to be given to my mentor this morning, i discovered that my wrist watch was missing!!! :'(
For a moment, i thought i was only being blinded. But, when i looked closer into the place where it usually lies, i sprang back to life and I literally turned stark white. Buckling under pressure, i rummaged through every inch of my room. Turned the wardrobe upside down, surveyed behind the bed, cleaned my college bag, peeked into every ounce of laundry, ran to the cluster kitchen, put my head into the fridge, checked the washroom. Hapless. With a heavy heart and a tear restless to get out of my eyes, i wore my other spare watch and rushed to the bus stop. As the bus rolled out, images flashed. It was a fine friday evening. I had just got my 10th class results. My parents gifted me this beautiful watch. She (the watch) had been with me ever since. My only live and alive partner, whenever i was alone. Faithful. Trustworthy.
Clad in a black leather strap, the crisp white square dial, with shiny silver needles made her look ever so glamourous. She agreed so well with any piece of attire. So many envied her. That watch of mine - Titan Raga. Ah!!! So sincere had she been. Ticking away tirelessly. Everytime i took a casual glance at her,she smiled back in reply. It seemed like the whole world was falling in. A strange emptiness began to swallow me. I could hear her ticking. Far far away. I could hear her calling out to me - to take her by my wrist. But her words seemed to dissolve in mid-air, little letting me trace my way to her. A huge chunk of my life, seemed missing. Erratic voices. Broken memories. Shattered times. Lingering thoughts.
This might seem so trivial, but, i treasured that watch and the thought that it is now no more with me, seems like a colossal loss. I was wondering if this were my fault or my fate. Probably, the other watch thought that it needed some attention from me. Poor thing!!! "The value of certain things/people is seldom known, until lost." How very true!!! Anyways, this loss seems to have evoken some feelings that were inert for so long. And so have they poured out, better late then never...
Resting was I in your warm womb,
Kicking frantically on those tender tissues.
So scared, so confined - I mite have felt,
Yet, your protective aura killed it all.
"Its a girl!!!" they finally exclaimed.
A beautiful joyous tear slipped your weary eyes.
So happy was I to be born - just for you.
Rebirth, it was for thou.
In blithe spirits was I that day,
When at last, I got a head taller than you.
Forever hence, have i grown,
Pampered by your unconditional love.
We then reached the threshold of separation,
Or so it seemed.
Far away have i flown, leaving you all alone.
Curse my selfish dreams!
Years have flipped by, so silently,
Little did i realise how less overt my love was.
Nonchalant were the words i have spoken,
Shattered have I many a times, your innocent heart.
A benign hug would have worked wonders,
A gentle kiss would have spoken it all.
I beg your mercy for keeping this secret from you -
"I love you and I miss you, my dear mom!!!"