Thursday, December 21, 2006

Aging in style

The sun peeked from between the branches
Morning dew adorned the leaves like pearls
Amidst this verdant landscape is outlined
A quiet and gentle figure.

With thick glasses perched low on the nose
Lips monotonously chanting.
Wrinkled fingers making artistic movements
As they turn colourful balls of wool into sweaters.

An epitome of wisdom and enthusiasm
A living mirage of the times that have passed
Beautiful old people - a work of art.
No wonder she is called ‘grand’mom.

Amazing real life stories. Cute fables. The warmth of her lap. The divine sparkle in her eyes. The tongue tickling food. She is so much fun to be with – loving, caring, soft and practical.

P.S.: A dedication to my dearest grandmother.

Friday, December 15, 2006

Milestone 50...

Five years ago, appa returned from his overseas trip. A new teddy sat in the suitcase, ready to be hugged. So damn cute. Seems like just yesterday since "Jammy" entered my life.

Three years ago, a brand new scooty sprang to life. Today, as i push the dust off her, she stands and winks at me before we begin our journey. Seems like just yesterday since "black beauty" entered my life.

A year ago, lappie dear walked in. Stuck ferrero rocher stickers all over his shining silver crust - he's been amazing company. Seems like just yesterday since "Ferrero" entered my life.

Few months later, music blared in my ears. A black i-pod it was. Nothing could have been a better gift for the musically obsessed me. Seems like just yesterday since "Ferero" entered my life (couldnt think of another name for her!)

Nine months ago, in came another new world of difference - virtual this time. Little did i realise that this too could add so much spice to life, find me a new set of friends and shrink this huge world, so much so that they could feel what i felt. It all began with this poem -

A Reason to be here!!

To relive those precious moments,
Flooded with joys unprecedented
And emotions unparalleled,
I enter this new world
Where glimpses of the past and
Hopes of the future,
Turn into words of the present
And here I present to you,
A reflection of the true me -
"Ecstasy Re-lived"

Seems like just yesterday since "Ecstasy Re-lived" came into existence.

P.S. : My 50th post! :D Tks a ton to all those who have been patiently going through my ramblings :) Hugggzzzzzzzz! :)

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Another end.. another beginning...

Happppppppppyyyyyyyy Bday to Rumz !!! Have a blast diiii!!!!

Hellllooooooooooooooo peoplessssssssssss!!!! My exams for this sem finally came to an end on wednesday and since then, i have been on cloud nine!!! Yahoooooooooooooo!!!!! Jolllyyyyyyy!!! My room has been blaring with music. I have been singing along and jumping around my room. At last, it feels so nice to be back to my hyper-excited state from that hypertensed state! To add to all the excitement, it poured cats and dogs that evening - a perfect way to begin the hols! Also, i bid goodbye to our indian stall aunty. She was really pleased that i informed her about me goin back home for vacation. :) My frnd and me then went out for some window shopping and had an icecream! We went around laughing like maniacs, rewinding all the fun that we had this sem. She has been an awesome friend throughout this semester, been there at all times. Loved her company. Completely. Am sure gonna miss her for the next few days. Oki, those apart, am now ready to take offfffffffff!!!! Yipppppeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! Cant wait to see people back home. I've literally instructed people at home with all their chores, mom - to make rasam and my fav curry, dad - to stock the fridge with butterscotch icecreams, cuzns - to have completed preparing for exams, coz their sis is comin over to freak out with them! And yeah, i cant wait to lay my hands on my dad's car and my bike! :D Whoaaaaaaa!!!

Oki, this time, i havn't really thought about a good blog topic to post (as if its been good so far!) Phew! Anyways, i thought i would just put down a part of the conversation my frnd n me had b4 our last exam (molecular biology). Here it goes...

She : hi di.. exam prep how?
Me: so so di.. shit scared! u?
She: hopeless di... mcq na, i will use the elimination method...
Me: hehe.. same pinch!
She: dat also dont work na, then spy wid my little eye :D
Me: hehe... to an extent me too depending on the person beside me...
She: heeheeh... seri.. tell ur seat number no
Me: ***
She: other exams n all u sat anywhere near ^^?
Me: no di.. ** was my closest...
She: haiyoo.. hope i dunt land up in front row!
Me: hehe.. free free..
She: I left free di alridi.. still.. hv to be a bit serious na.. if this module pulls down the avg na.. then damage only...
Me: Yeah.. i know.. scary!
She: this eggjam .. egg than :((
Me: boiled egg na can eat.. else.. dat also waste!
She: raw eggggggg di!!!! will fall on head!
Me: hehe.... alridi the stinkings :P
She: person next to me gets A na, then i can get atleast B...
Me: ikjaactly! :D
She: I am getting only ** avg di... u?
Me: Oye.. u stop calculating avg di.. u've been tellin me all nos for the past 3 days!
She: me got one disease di....
Me: wattttt di.. bomb putting?
She: CAP calculating disease.. the CC disorder!
Me: LOL!
She: mutation in a single brain cell
Me: i am goin to come n repress that disorder.. its troubling me too much.. overexpression!
She: hehehe.. u shd cause point mutation .... and silence the gene
Me: No no.. me the do direct deletion only! :D
She: hehe.... cannot... it is like albinism :P
(*i am silent for a while*)
She: y ur tongue the silence?
Me: hehe... shows how much i have studied! ;) damage only 2moro!

We went on to crib about our status and finally realised that we had wasted enough time and got back to mugging stuff. :D Oki, now that exams are over, i aint goin to think abt it anymore.. goin to enjoy my hols and hope to come back and kick start a fresh new semester! :D Till then.. take care.. my next post will be from home sweet home, my very own room!!! Whoaaa!!! So nice! See u guys soon!!! Hugggggggzzzzzzzzz!!! :D

Saturday, November 25, 2006

Lets keep it goin...

Hello people! Hope you guys had a good week. I have been studyin quite well and most importantly, i am really happy with the work i have been putting in :) I hope that i keep up this pace. Exams begin in a couple of days. So, i am in my own "sweet" world. Am sure this challenge is goin to end pretty soon and i will be back home - ready to be pampered! :D

Here are a few quotations that i found- a reflection of what i feel right now!

This one is for all those who have been keeping me motivated through this period of time. Special thanks to my "cheers prithzuuu!" and "you-know-what" pals! ;) Thanks a ton for always being by my side! :)

Take care peps! Have a wonderful weekend! Huuuuugggzzz! :)

Saturday, November 18, 2006

On a Spree!

First things first! This cake is for Dr. Venkatesh! Happppyyy bdayyyyy to u! I hope u don't mind the portion of the cake i ate. It was too tempting! :D

Helllloooo peps!!! Hope you guys had an awesome week. My week was pretty decent. For the past 2 days, I have been really tensed about my viva. Finally, this morning, I had my viva and after 2 hours, the spur of questions came to an end. In comparison to the viva we gave in our previous semester on electric fish, I felt that my group did a pretty decent job. OMG! Previous semester was a nightmare-come-true. The mentors were shooting all sorts of unimaginable questions in physics, to us, bio majors. We felt like some caged birds being quizzed on a fresh water fish’s habitat. Clueless and lost. Well, after what seemed like hours of incessant rebuttal, we walked out, tired and hungry. A wave of relief swept the three of us. Too drained to speak, we smiled at each another and all of a sudden, we burst out laughing in unison. Each one of us knew what the other was thinking. It was over! Yesssss!! At last, it was over!!!

While on our way to the canteen, we were mocking at how each one of us were tensed during the whole session. We drew pictures in air describing the horns, swords, long nails and protruding teeth that we gave our mentors, as they were mercilessly shooting questions at us! After a really long time, we were laughing our heads off. For a month now, its been more of ‘serious’ job, working in the lab for late hours, fearing to meet the Prof, playing hide-and-seek with our supervisor when we didn’t show up in lab for one week during mid-sem exams and worst of all, we had lots of last minute editing to do in our report. Looking back, all this seems like an adventure.

Even though we were literally gobbling down our food, we didn’t stop jabbering. We went on to recollect the good old first few days of the semester. The lectures, the lecturers (:D), hours of gossip in the canteen, the CCA’s, last minute work on submissions, lab and yeah, not to miss out, the faculty bazaar. The faculty bazaar is one thing that can turn on girls, more so, if the girl is committed. The bazaar has some awesome earrings, chains, t-shirts, skirts, bangles, crystals, soft toys, icecream stalls (!) and lots more. Sometimes, I have got so engrossed with the stuff there, that I have walked in late for lectures! Don’t ask me if I have a heavy purse. No. I simply look around, try on the chains and earrings, admire myself in the mirror for sometime, then ask them silently for the price, give them a flabbergasted look, say “Oh!” and silently slip away. When I am with my other friends, its much more fun. We walk along each stall, browsing through all the stuff they have, gape at the prices, mock at how they are trying to sell a Rs.10 earring that we could get in Pondy bazaar, at $5, pity ourselves for being single, or pour words of jealousy to those friends who are attached. We go around teasing each other of their taste and finally, when we see the vendor giving us a nasty look, we realize that we are back to stall one after one full round!

Shopping has always been fun, especially, if we are hunting for tiny-weeny stuff like earrings, hairbands, clips and bhindis. I just can’t forget those days when I used to go shopping in Pondy bazaar with appa and amma. Mom and me invariably have difference of opinion about such stuff and dad would barge in the middle and tell amma to let me have my choice. Haha! What pleasure that would give me. It was like a battle won. However, feeling sorry for my mom, I would add her choice of earrings into the cart too and promise her that I would help her with dinner that night. Mummy flattered! :P If not for the prime location of these roadside shops, such that aircon blows from the showroom nearby, I would have felt like being burnt in a furnace because of the hot puffs of smoke from mom’s ear. :D Finally, when it comes to payment, I am out of the scene. Its dad’s smartness to bargain and get me all the stuff that I have piled up in the basket! One kind word that I have saved one rasgulla for him in the fridge for tonite’s desert is enough to melt his heart. Cute daddy! Yeah, it does seem sweetly mean. But these are those small joys in life that make life so exciting. I am sure that I am going to be doing such stuff when I get back home for vacation. (*hope my parents got the hint*):D

Can’t wait for exams to get over and rush back home. Got to catch up with lots of friends and relatives. Btw, I have a presentation to give on the snake venom project this Monday! Hope it goes well. I shall see you guys soon. Till then, take care. Huggggzzzzzzz!!! Ciao! :)

Saturday, November 11, 2006

That subtle difference...

Hello people! How has your week been? Good? I had a busy week. I finally completed my last mid-sem exam and yeah, we also finished our report on the snake venom project. Now am back to myself, warming the chair (and my laptop), munching on whatever i can lay my hands on! :D

Ok, let’s begin with this week's post. Few days ago, i happened to read this awesome post in Gils' blog on 'nice guys'. That's what inspired me to write this one. My rantings begin…

These are some random thoughts on a set of girls who often go unnoticed for reasons that 'God-alone-knows'. They are the ones whose silence is so much so that it makes their presence cached. Not that they are shy or introverts, but it’s just that it’s the way they are. They love to own the spotlight when they are within their small group of friends, but don’t quite seek attention when in a crowd. They would make awesome buddies if one understood the simplicity and frankness in them. They might not seem so open to conversation when it comes to guys, but once they get to know him better, the guy might infact find a new dimension, that he would have to drastically edit his ‘what-I-look-for-in-my-girl’ list.

These girls may not necessarily belong to the "36-24-36" hot chicks category that most guys go gaga over, but still have that aura of what i call 'sweet and silent' beauty. They are often nicknamed lone-wolves or sometimes even nerds when they refrain from attending parties coz they don’t like the crowd or if they refuse to join a gang of friends who have booked an entire row of seats for a first day, first show movie, coz they don’t feel quite comfortable with the attention that their gang might possibly get in the theatre. They mite find no need for that extra layer of makeup, a rich lip gloss or mascara to power up their looks, but instead stick to wearing just a thin line of kaajal, that is strong enough to lure the 'nice guys' (which too was unintended). Its these few girls who are branded as not being fashion conscious just because they are still spotted in a pair of casual jeans whose ends have been neatly tailored, while the rest of the world is following the new trend of wearing mini-skirts, which bears the look of 'my-ends-have-been-ripped-by-the-ruthless-washing-machine'. This also refers to those girls who are termed as being so less cosmetic savvy because they are ignorant about the new facial scrub that 'The Body Shop' has just introduced in market.

They are the ones who might find nothing so fascinating about a guy's biceps or triceps, or for that matter won’t even bother to check if he would be strong enough to lift her if she were to become his girlfriend, but still insist that he works out in the gym so that he can drop a bit of fat that hangs from his sides, which makes his once flat-football-groundish tummy look like a basketball now. This is about those many girls who expect not that their male friend open doors for them, or carry their heavy shopping bags, but would be genuinely appreciative of his gentlemanliness and grateful for accompanying them back home in the dark night, so that she didn't have to walk back alone. I am talking about those girls who, when interrupted by a call in between a waxing session, would simply bite their teeth in pain and listen patiently to their excited friend on the line, who is desperate to give her a detailed description of the chick sitting in front of him in the bus, instead of snapping hard at the poor fellow, who has no clue of what she is upto at the other end.

They don’t fuss over a small drop of rose milk that they accidentally spilt on their dress and end up finishing all the tissues in the table in the name of clearing it, but infact, silently excuse themselves to the washroom and get it cleared without any hullabaloo. These are the set of girls who prefer having a nice, homely, self-cooked lunch with their friends rather than go out to McD or Burger King for a burger and coke. While the truth remains that they consider such quick meals as fillers rather than a wholesome meal, they are criticized of having become unfit for this kind of a lifestyle. As if there was an equation establishing a linear relationship between the prime of a girl and the number of hard rock songs in her mp3 player, these girls are mocked at when they confess that they prefer listening to soft melodies. When it comes to the discussion of a topic that they are not interested in (either coz they are void of any knowledge in that area or coz they find it disgusting), they are teased to such an extent as if they were only fit to be born as some asexually reproducing plant or algae.

Finally, these are the girls who are considered the honest-to-goodness kind. It is little understood that they have their own sweet way of being mischievous and enjoying life. At the end of the day, it’s the question of how each one of us chooses to live our life. :) Ok, I shall wind up my post here. See you guys soon. Have a super cool weekend. Take care. Huggggzzzzzzzz!!!

Also, the card below is a dedication to a very good friend of mine. One friend who tires not of my u-know-what's!!! Wanted to cheer him up from the meloncholy.

Hey, 'you-know-who'.. know wat?... this is for ya!!!! :D

Saturday, November 04, 2006

Waking up to reality...

Hellllllloooo people!!! Hope u guys had a nice week and headstarted your weekend!!! :D Well, my week was decent. Finally, i got myself to work and yeah, so far so good! Also, my cousin had his betrothal this week. My entire family was down there, having fun (not as much as they would have, if i were there - i assume so!!), eating like gluttons (i am sure they did, they cant deny it!!!). And I was in my room, alone, enjoying the pleasant s'pore weather with a few slices of garlic bread and a glass of tea and yeah, working on my statistics assignment!!! Whoa!!! I couldnt get to believe it was me. Family functions are something that really turn me on. I get really freaked out, planning what to dress, what job i am assigned to be doing and stuff like that!

Well, this time was quite an exception. I was excited about everything. Alright! But still, i guess i was trying to suppress that feeling. In a way, it was masked by my fear and worries of missing the fun on the D-day. I didnt want to be that emotionally shaken girl who would sit down in the corner of the room and weep for being so far away from home on such an occasion. Infact, i was consoling my cousins and aunties who were missing me. I asked them to enjoy the food while i am not around, awakening them to the fact that i wouldnt have left anything for them to eat, if i were there. More than anyone else, i guess my parents were missing me the most. Imagine, when all other uncles and aunties swarm the hall with their children and discuss about what each one of their kids is upto, while my dad and mom have nothing else to say, except that their daughter couldnt make it to the engagement.

Hmm.. well.. my dad and mom were updating me about all that was happening there, to the extent that, my dad dailed direct from his mobile and was describing how each one of my cousins, aunties and uncles were dressed! OMG!! That was kinda crazy. But before he hung up the phone he said, "Nothing much is happening here. Dont worry. You can make up for it during the marriage. Now relax and get back to your work. Take care!" I dont see how better he could have put that. Infact, i feel we were tryin to console one another. I was asking my parents to chill and not bother much about the eternal question of their missing daughter, that would keep bouncing back on them as they dash upon each one of our family members. I instructed them to give no explanations and simply told them to repeat these words, "Enjoy the food while she is not around!"

Personally, i feel that this, to some extent, does show signs that i am infact growing up to be that strong, mature and "cute" woman that i want to blend myself into, without losing the excites-for-nothing and hyperactive girl that i always wish to be. :D Well, apart from all these, i am working as a student guide in the nobel museum hosted by my university this year! Its been lots of fun, especially the group tours that i gave for school kids!!! And guess what??? Today, a lady from the university newsletter came up to me and began shooting questions at me. In short, she was interviewing me!!! This is the first time i am being put through such a situation. But thank god, i didnt say anything stupid except for one question which went like this. She asked me why i chose to be student guide for the nobel exhibition and i said, "Oh, well.. i guess this is the closest i can get to the nobel prize!!" I dont know how good or bad an answer that was, but it was for sure a very frank and spontaneous answer that escaped my lips. I am just waiting to see the museum manager's reaction when he reads that article!!! :P

Well, thats it for now...i've got lots more assignments and lessons to catch up.. i will see ya guys soon.. till then.. take care.. have fun.. hugggggzzzzzzzzzzz!!! :)

p.s.: hey.. i forgot to tell u guys that i played pool on diwali!!! First time!!! Was wonderful and i enjoyed it.. so now.. who wanna play pool wid prithz??? :P

Monday, October 30, 2006

Tempest with Self...

Hi ppl! Hope u guys had a good weekend. My weekend was quite bland. I had a handful of plans lined up - but all that i managed to do was go jogging and tighten up my muscles. Oh dear! I am now on "loosening up" excercise. Its giving me hell loads of pain that i am unable to walk a few steps or even sit down in peace. Believe me, its a real torture!

More than a week has passed by since i sat down in harmony with my mind and books. They simply dunt seem to cooperate. Well, today my tolerance level touched its zenith. This is not the first time in life that i feel pissed off with my own self and its not a feeling i enjoy having. Of course not! But still, i have been stupid enough to get to this state of mind. Haven't i?? It makes me wonder if i ever managed to learn anything worth-while from my previous experience. How crazy can that get?

It isnt uncommon that at the end of a week, i find myself having done nothing useful. But the guilt that gets me to the task at one point of time, is still inert. It makes me ponder why.

Where is that me that once was? What does this indifference to work mean? Why is it that deadlines seem to matter so less? Is it that i am so confident about getting done with it in the last moment? Where is that dream that i thought was driving my life? Have i put it on hibernation at the wrong time? Or is it that i am not serious enough about my goals in life? Where is all the self motivation i tried to give myself? Was it just an illution? Or am i trying to do something that is beyond my calibre? Have i taken the wrong decision in life? Anyways, now that i am halfway across the journey, it isnt wise to turn back or repent. I feel i have given enough and more space to the lazy bug in me. Its high time i get to some serious work. Else things can get messy and there can be nothing but calamity. I have no justifications for not working.
No more sympathies! I am off for now!

Take care guys.. hope all of us have a neat week ahead...i am hoping that i can get cheerful soon...hugggzzzzzzzzzzzz!

P.S. : I seriosuly wish i could tell u about all the fun i had this diwali. But, my current state of mind is too preoccupied, that it wishes to confess its misbehaviour. Lets hope this confession can get it to work. I shall soon strike back with my usual "straight-from-the-heart" and "bubbly" posts! Promise! :)

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Neither here, nor there!


Its that time in life -

When those that are sweet to the heart, are not so to the mind.

When thoughts from the same soul seem cantankerous.

When salt and pepper looks are hard to be hidden.

When the bubbling energy seems so muffled.

When anything childish speaks of insanity.

When the fuming enthusiasm is poise.

When ignorance is unaccpetable.

When truth is lucidly raw.

Its also that time in life -

When peril means challenge.

When the chaos is just too exciting.

When work is 'dreams under construction'.

When vivacious still sounds an understatement.

When the silence is so deafening and full of meaning.

When responsibilities seem heavy and come crashing down.

When trying to feign innocence seems a wonderful adventure.

When the world seems so bland, yet so bold, bright and beautiful.


This is that time in life when pandemonium prevails. I feel distorted, lost, confused. A tempest rages within myself - To conquer the unseen, the unheard, the untouched and the unknown. To taste the elixir of life. Its when i try to paint maturity in every thought and attitude. Immaturity seems to breed self-contempt. Well, if these are what they call "growing up", then, i can feel the pristine splendor of this mayhem attack me!!!

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Will i ever grow up?!?!

Helllllooo peoplessss!!! How u guys doin???? Hope u guys are gettin ready to rock diwali this year!!! Am as excited as ever to welcome diwali. Strange as it may seem, i have so many plans for diwali. But ironical enough, i am clueless about what i am goin to do!!! Haha!! Oki, before i start off with the topic of the blog, here goes this week's highlights....

1> I put up a decent show in my molecular biology exam!!!! Atleast, i think i did good for the effort i had put in.. usually, i get pissed off when my efforts dunt pay off (anyone does for that matter)..but this time, i was indeed happy with myself that i got moa an icecream!!! Haha!! cute huh???

2> After a long time in the history of my exam preparations, i finished preparing for 2moro's stats exam 19 hours ahead of time!!! I guess the last time i did such a thing was when i was in class 5!!! Proabably, its all stats prof's influence now!! :D

3> As diwali is fast approaching, i thot i would clean up my room and do my laundry much sooner than i usually do! Unfortunately, to do laundry, we need 20 cents for activating the washing machine and the drier, which i didnt have!! Thanks to the vending machine in the common room, i exchanged my 10 cents for 20 cents!!! (*this is a secret many juniors in university dunno!!! so finger on your lips!!!*) Then, after washing, i found to my horror that no drier was working!!! Shit thing!!! Later, i had to steal the clothes line stand from the kitchen. I silently sneaked it into my room, only to find that it was broken!!! No wonder, somebody had dumped it in the kitchen!!! Still, i managed to make it stand in one unstable equilibrium! I had to skillfully hang the clothes alternately on both sides, so that it balances!!! I carefully managed to hang the didnt-wash-me-for-more-than-a-month jeans so that it doesnt disturb the existing precarious setup. Anyways, now its all dryin up.. so lets keep fingers crossed!!! LOL!!

Oki, now enough of my mundane stuff... Let me get to the topic...

Two weeks ago, i bought kellogg's choco balls and frosties. Now, dunt ask me wats so great abt that. Jus listen up! So, yeah.. as usual , one evening, i opened the choco balls pack to munch while studying! :P Little did i know i had a surprise inside! I found a cute smiley spoon in that!!! I got sooooo bloody excited that i immediately started using that for eating breakfast, lunch, dinner, supper, chips - practically everything. The next morning, i opened frosties for breakfast and i found another smiley spoon there!!! WooooW!!! Super cool na!!!

I collected 2 colours.. got to collect the other 2 colour spoons - blue and red!!! :D

I know all this sounds quite insane from a girl who is slowly going to slip outta her teens in a few months time. But, i am this weird combo, who is a total freak for cosmetics on one side and on the other, loves anything that is kids stuff!!!!! When at home, we used to get such kiddo stuff for free (when i buy biscuits or chocis!!!). Usually, i never got a chance to keep them for myself. Mom and dad felt it was too stupid of me to play with such stuff and they used to pass it on to my other younger cousins! I wouldnt mind that tho! But i remember collecting tazo's that used to be given with ruffles lays!!! I collected so many that my cuzns got jealous. One day when i was away to skol, they took the whole pack from my home. I was searching for it all over the house. I even suspected my mother for throwing them away in the name of cleaning my shelf! Later, when i went to my cuzn's place, i found all my prized collections there!!!

Apart from the my interest in such goodies, i am this character who digs into her dad's travel bag and suitcase when he returns from a tour! I am such a selfish soul that i dunt even bother to ask him about his trip. But of course, i am kind enough to snatch the heavy bag, unpack it for him and check if he has got me anything!!! :P With a dad who travels a lot, i know exactly wat to look for when he returns from his tour! If he is gettin bk from cochin - banana chips, madurai - lovely jasmine (for mom!! :P), bombay - some books for me(this was during harry potter season-pirated books!!), pune - bakarwadi, delhi - some nice tops, lucknow - chicken work salwar!!! Apart from these if he travels by flight, then first thing that i look for are the dairy creamer packets!!! :P

This reminds me of my dad's first visit to Europe. This was when i was in primary school. While everyone in our family were anxious and a bit worried about his first overseas travel, i was one kid who was totally excited about the whole thing! It was rather a matter of pride for me to boast to my frnds - "Hey, u know wat??? My appa is goin to Europe! Jolly!! He said he will get me lots of chocolates. Dunt tell anyone oki.. i will bring some to skol and share with you during biscuit break!!!" (*i used to wink at them after that!!*) Yeah!!! One week later, he returned at around 3-4am in the morning! And i was wide awake, not to welcome him, but his suitcase!!! But guess what??? He did get lots of chocolates. But sadly, enough, i was expecting that he get me some soft toys, but he got me one piggy that would skip!!! He also got an octopus clock!!! Yeakkssss!!! So scary it was!! OMG!!! I then felt i was a "big girl" to be playing with a pig that would go around the house skippin if switched on!!! For heaven's sake, i cant tell my frnds about his piggy that dad so lovingly got for me! I was sooo upset that day!!! I was like, "Appa, in London, arent there any soft toys?? Y of all the things u got me this pig??? My frnds will mock at me if i tell them u got me a piggy!! I dunt like it at all.. go to london again n get me somthing else!!!" Poor thing!!! Only now can i understand how bad he would have felt to hear those words from me! Every cuzn of mine born after me has played with that piggy!!! Now, my 1 year old neice plays wid it too!!! Frankly, i meddle wid it when i go home!!! :D

Today, i am miles away to even think of digging into my dad's suitcase when he returns from a tour. But, whenever i chat with him, he does tell me that he has all the diary creamer packets saved for me in the fridge!!! "Sooo cute!!!" This is wat makes me feel if i will ever grow up!!! Last year, around the same time was my first diwali in s'pore and away from my family. The very same day, a year ago, my dad and mom sent me a gift for diwali along with a letter. It was the first hand written letter from my mother!! :) Truely amazing!!!

I dunno y i suddenly got so senti. But yeah, another diwali away from home reminded me of these incidents. So, jus felt like sharing this with you guys.. hope i didnt bore u too much. I shall stop here.. Me looking forward for a wonderful diwali with frnds!! I leave u guys with my warm diwali wishes!! Have a colourful, happy and safe diwali!!! Have a blast and enjoy yourselves!!! take care.. huggggzzzzzzzzzz!!!! :)

p.s. : shall try to post pics of the piggy and octopus clock in my next post! :)

Sunday, October 15, 2006

When thoughts are just wishes...

Wish i can hold ur hand and walk along... like the walk to icecream parlour

Wish i can hear those encouraging words... as u lift me up from low spirits

Wish i can take you out in our car... while i drive n u jus sit back (tensed :P)

Wish i can be unwrapped from this virtual connection... (for a change, internet sucks)

Wish i can taste the flavour of your fingers... when u feed me

Wish i can feel the warmth of your lap... when i rest on u

Wish i can see the joy in your eyes... when we meet again

Wish i can just be there... with u... at home...

Stressed. Dejected. Home sick. Badly wanting to see my parents...

Am counting down days to catch my flight back home... till then, lets hope things go well.. Diwali is comin up soon.. not yet got new dress... no plans.. once i am done with my stats exam on 20th evening.. things will fall in place... Anyways... am still the motivated and enthu kid around in university in spite of all the commotion... am happy with myself in that sense... gaining inspiration from thy self! That's exactly wat keeps me goin thru such tuf times... Life suddenly seems to be pickin up pace... and i am enjoying the run.. Join along peps!!!!!!! :) hugggggzzzzzzzzzz!!!! Will catch ya guys soon.... :)

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Acute HyperTAGosemia!

Yalo peps! Hope u guys are having a good week. I have been running around with classes and almost 6 hours of lab everyday. Gettin me really tired. Yesterday, i was in the lab from 11am until 8.30pm, with a break of 2 hours - to meet my mentor and to have tea! OMG, i got so restless at the end of the day. I couldnt wait to shove away my shoes and pull my legs outta the socks!!! But anyways, i thoroughly enjoyed working! So no regrets :)

With regards to my prev tag post, i was wondering, if there is something really weird about me. And lo, i did manage to squeeze these outta my drained brain. Here are a few more -

<1> I have the habit of combing my hair, washing my hands and face before going to bed every night. Its like i am dressing up to get into my world of trance.

<2> Of late, i have developed this obsession for tea that, i cant manage to get to bed in the night without having a glass of tea! (all these days i have been thinking that tea makes u brisk!!)

<3> However f***ing hot the climate be, my shower will always be with warm water. My dad comes out sweating if he gets into the bathroom after i have had my shower!!!

<4> When i get angry or frustrated (which happens very rarely nowadays), i need to push down stuff. Like, at home, i used to push down all the vessels from the kitchen or scatter the newpaper on the floor! But mom had to clean up the place!

Hehe :) So, that's also another side of me!!! And here are the other 2 tags...

Tagged by Krithika -

1)Are you happy/satisfied with your blog with it's content and look?
Absolutely! I love it! Anyways, if i wanted a change, i mite prefer a pink template with flowers and butterflies and lakes and chocolates and icecreams!!

2) Does your family know about your blog?
Yeah, they do! My dad even posted an anony comment in my post about singlish!

3) Do you feel embarrassed to let your friends know about your blog or you just consider it as a private thing?
Not at all - i am happy to share my thoughts with them. If i thot my posts were so private that even my friends are not allowed to read them, i wouldnt be blogging in a public portal like this.

4) Did blogs cause positive changes in your thoughts?
Of course! Loads! Tons!

5) Do you only open the blogs of those who comment on your blog or you love to go and discover more by yourself?
Usually, i stick to my blogrolled list. Occasionally, when i am bored, i visit new blogs.

6) Did you try to imagine your fellow bloggers and give them real pictures?
Nopes! Its a virtual world for me. I feel, relate and see though their words and thoughts. But one day, i hope to meet them eye-to-eye.

7) Admit. Do you think there is a real benefit for blogging?
For me - YES! It is all in the individual's attitude.

8) Do you think that bloggers society is isolated from real world or interacts with events?
What does the question mean? What events? I believe that i am currently living in two worlds - the real and the virtual. While blogging, i bring my real world into the virtual. Dats it!

9) Does criticism annoy you or do you feel it's a normal thing?
I dunt mind being criticised. But, sometimes, i jus dunt care about it. I am what i am and people are what they are! If every one of us thought the same way, there is no variety in life. No spice.

10) Do you fear of some political blogs and avoid them?
I dont fear them. I avoid them for sure! I hate politics.

11) Did you get shocked by the arrest of some bloggers?
This in itself is a shocking news to me.

12) Did you think about what will happen to your blog after you die?
Nopes! I dont want to think about it. Even if i were to think, all that comes to my mind is this - after i die, somebody mite come down to my blog, read my post, comment and wait for me to reply. When they find my space idle for more than a week, they mite even ping me and say "Update plz!" :P

13) What do you like to hear? What's the song you like to put its link in your blog?
Kadhal Sadugudu from Alaipayuthe - my all time favourite!

14) Five bloggers to be the next "victims"?
Will let know later in comment section!

Tagged by Has to be me -

3 Smells I love:
> the aroma of mom's food
> jhonson's baby powder, soap
> intoxicating smell of the earth when it begins to rain

3 Smells I hate:
> smell of anything non-veggie being cooked, esp. fish and chicken
> durian
> sweaty bad body odour

3 Jobs that I have had in my life:
> class leader
> cupboard leader
> math n science secretary

3 Movies that I could watch over and over:
> My Girl
> Devdas
> Alaipayuthe

3 Fond memories:
> When i got admission into NUS
> When my parents proudly posed for a pic with me when i got the award for best out going student from class 12
> When my neice Aditi was born

3 Jobs I would love to have:
> Work as research assistant in a stem cell lab
> Teacher for primary and seconday skol kids
> Being a mother (i know it aint a job, its goin to be fun and quite tricky!)

3 Things I like to do:
> To listen to good music and sing along
> Sit by the beachside, watch the waves, hear them talk to me and enjoy the fresh air.
> Freak out with my family

3 Of my favorite foods:
> Mom's rasam rice
> Dad's vethakozhambu
> Of course, pav bhaaji, masala tea, butterscotch icecream and ferero rocher chocolates!

3 Places I would like to be right now:
> My home in Chennai
> On top of the icecapped Alps
> Stem cell lab!
(*btw, can i be in 3 places at the same time???*)

3 Things that make me cry:
> When i feel desperate to talk or see someone
> When i work hard and it doesnt give me the deserved result
> When i feel homesick

Ahhhhhhhhhhh!! That ends it. I am now cured of my acute hyperTAGosemia!!! Since i am in a super cool mood, i aint taggin anyone. However, watch out! I mite come down to ur blog and tag you!!! :P So peps.. take care. have fun and enjoy your weekend!!! :) tataaaaaaaaaaaaa... and huggggggggzzzzzzzzzzz!!! :)

Monday, October 09, 2006

Hey Hey!! This is me!!! :)

Yealooooo guys n gals!!! Stricking back again with tag!!! This time tagged by Ganesh. So here it goes...

Those 6 things that I feel makes me weird, yet keeps me myself (btw, weird is a relative term) -

<1> Mood-swing : One moment i can be sooo hyper and the very next, i can get so moody, that a tear will jus trickle down my cheek, when u had least expected it!! And yeah, once again start giggling with tears still rolling down!!! Oh my gawddddd!!! Can i ever get over thisssssssss!!!

<2> Only guilt gets me to work : When i dont have the mood to study or work, i simply dont. Period. This can go on for days. For that matter, even until the day b4 exam. When i realise that i have freaked out enough and i begin to feel myself literally chocked out of guilt, i get to work!! And when i do get to work, i care the damn about the rest of the world. If not for deadlines, i would be gettin nowhere.

<3> The soft corner : I am this love maniac. If u shower me with love and care, be a good friend to me, i will be such an awesome friend, the sweetest u would have ever had. Even when u ditch me, i will have a soft corner for u. U mite be angry wid me for days, u mite not even talk to me. I will force to keep myself away from u, if u wish that way. Finally, when one day, u come back to me and smile, i will be the first person to hug u and feel best to have got u back into my life, no matter how harsh u have been to me in the past. I dunno from where i will got this attitude. Sometimes, it takes me for a ride. "If u enter my life, u are to be here forever" - That's my whole logic of a relationship. So, ultimately, i am very choosy about my friends. If i feel that i mite not be able to give my true self to the relationship, i nip it off at the bud - a soft smile is the best i can offer.

<4> Hard core perfectionist : I am such a sucker at this. I always look to perfectly crafting watever i do. When it comes to keepin the room clean, even a pen cant cant get outta place. I can get u a safety pin, when my room is pitch dark. Again, this is a triat i believe, has genetically travelled from my parents. Of course, i set my own perfection standards. Sometimes, i jus feel, i am demanding too much from myself. When it comes to exams, i got to know each n every syllable in the notes and the text, else, i get totally pissed off. This now seems quite difficult in university - so again, another struggle.

<5> Monotony kills : Anything that is monotonous can suck the life outta me. This mite be common for many. But in the future i cant imagine a life wherein i simply wakeup-cook-eat-rush to work-get back home-cook-eat-sleep. I need a break at least once in 2 days!!! Right from changing my nick or profile image in yahoo/msn messenger every 3rd day, to looking at a challenging work pattern, i hafto break the monotony. This is what adds life its spice and the zest! :)

<6> Sporty gal: Name a sport, teach me if i dunt know to play, and i will grasp it in a jiffy. Sometimes, i feel, i would have done better as an athlete than as a student of science. At the end of the day, i guess i will be playin around with some bacteria, viruses or stem cells!!! LOL!!!

Too add to all these weird attitude thingies, i have this physically wierd stuff. I eat like a glutton. With one look at me, no one would believe that i eat so much. When u jus begin to think, "Ah, she is damn full. now she gotto stop munching something", i am sorry to say, but u got me wrong. I will still be hungry. In some corner of my tummy, i will still have place to insert a scoop of butterscotch icecream. My metabolism rate is dangerously high. Some of u mite even get jealous if u tell u that my daily diet includes corn flakes with one mug milk and nuts, 1 mug of chocolate milk(strictly extra cream milk), 1 mug tea, one cup of rice(includes high fat curd rice), one veggie, one fruit, 3 cheese dosas, one boiled egg, boiled american corn, one mug juice, 3 bars of hazel nut chocolate, one scoop icecream, and still, i manage to get no fat under my skin. Eating like this for the past 2 months, and i was only able to stuff myself with a rise of 2 kgs - all the calcium went to my bones and i am still the same healthily-thin-and-tall girl. Again, its in my genes!!! But now, i am happy the way i am... only then can i jump and kick and roll and do all sorts fo crazy things na!?!?! :D

That ends the weird stuff about me. I guess u can discover some more weirdo stuff if u get a chance to meet and interact wid moa!! :P

And guys... guess wat??? I went bowling last saturday!!!! My first experience!!! :D

Whoaaaaaaaaa!!! It was awesome. The first time i bowled, i struck 8. In my 7th round of the first game, i had a full strike!!!! Whoaaaaa..i literally jumped up to the roof punchin the air hard with my fist!!! I got soo bloody excited. OMG!!! My friends couldnt believe it was my first bowling experience and they went on teasing me to the fact that is was just beginner's luck. But then, when the guys were pleading with us girls for another game, my finger was the first to go up. And guess what? i did much better in my second game!! No more beginner's luck i tell u. Pure talent!!! As i mentioned before, i ought to have taken up a career in sports!!

As soon as i saw a PINK ball, i wanted a foto wid me holdin it!!! OMG, when i tried to lift it, it was unexpectedly heavy and oops, it mite have landed on my foot, if not not for my quick reflexes.

Oki, then we paid up for another game and began to play with teams. Though my thumb was beginning to swell and hurt, i still managed to get 3 straight strikes!!! Man, in the group of 7 of us, i managed to come 3rd!! Not bad for a freshie han???!! Our team lost by a mere 7 points, but still, i beat my friend on the one-to-one bet that we personally had!!! :D Super cool!!! Then after bowling, we went for a massage. It was this cosy easy-chair sort of thing, where v had to put in $1 and it would begin to massage, or for me - TICKLE!!! Sh** man!!! Instead of relaxing my muscles and soothing my body pain, it managed to perfectly tickle every ounce of flesh. I was wriggling on the chair, making all sorts of crazy noises. I was laughin like a maniac and the worst part was that, my friends managed to video tape all that i was doing!!! OMG!!! I looked so funny!!! And when at last, the so-called massage was over, i ought to have been feeling relaxed and refreshed, instead i was so damn tired and my muscles were still giggling for all the acupuncture therapy they got!!!

Oki, that ends my series of freak outs i had this weekend. From now on, i am plannin to lessen my shopping for clothes and cosmetics. Instead, me gonna go bowling... anyone wanna join meeeeeeeee??????

Saturday, October 07, 2006

Let's talk cock* meh!!

Hello peoples!!! Nice to see u guys so soon!!! Hope u had an awesome week. I badly wanted a break from my books and so, here i am sooner than expected!!! But, guys, i am sorry to say that i havnt yet got my confirmation about the good news. I am as anxious and excited as u are...but good things dunt come so easy rite.. so lets jus have our fingers crossed and wait for the D-day!!! :)

Its been almost more than a year since i have settled in singapore and i would be doing no justice if i fail to learn the local singlish here. Yeah, i am gettin a hold of it all!! Its actually fun to speak with local singaporeans in their own language - simple, easy and gramatically less demanding. Nowadays, within indians ourselves, conversing in singlish has become some sort of a fun-factor. It reminds of me of my school days, when we used to have our own school language and boast about it all to our neighbours and cousins who were in different schools. Now, even in university, this gang of about 5-6 of us have been actively propagating our school's language!!! :P Here are some slangs we commonly use -

>> When we got to say a hi - "Yalo the!!"
>> When we are cheering someone, or encouraging - "Come the!!"
>> While trying to capture the attention of a crowd - "Yalo peoples!!! Listen up!! "

Am not goin to let out anything more, for we are currently working on patenting this. Once we get our patent approved, i shall share some more!! :P

Oki, now for some singlish... i have borrowed this from one of my friends.. hope he doesnt mind it.. even if he does... i am sure he has not yet patented it.. so i aint gonna get caught in singapore's strict plagiarism rules!! :) So, here they go...

>> When someone offers a favour, the other casually rejects saying, "Its okay lah!!"
>> When enquring if we can enter through a door or not - "Can pass or not??"
>> When trying to make the other person feel at home - "Dont shy shy lah."
>> While rejecting or declining an offer - "Doe waan!!"
>> When something cannot be done - "Cannot lah!"
>> When u are stuck in the middle of any matter, thinking about wat to do next, the other person asks - "So how??"
>> When trying to wind up any matter - "So, lets see how lah."
>> When you have completed some assignment - "I finish oreddy."
>> When you have lots of work piled up, then your condition is - "Die-die"
>> When you have not told the other person something, the other guy says - "You neva told me what!!"
>> When you want to ask if this bus has got ac - "This bus got aircon or not?"
>> When someone is staring at u for quite sometime - "Stare what stare??"

So, thats just a pinch of the singlish that i have begun to use quite frequently... :) At the same time, i make sure, i maintain my individuality and originality in the way i speak english. Ultiamtely, i got to be what i am. :P Now, u guys do add on if u have something interesting to share about such slangs... :) i will be back with good news and some o
ther updates about all thats happening out here in university... till then.. take care and have an blast this weekend.. huggggggggzzzzzzzzzzzz!!! :)

talking cock, in singlish means, talkin nonsense. :)

Wednesday, October 04, 2006


Yalooooooooooo peoples!!!!!!!! OMG, am back after a really loooong time!!! Missed u guys tons!!! Hope u guys are doing good. I have sooooo many things to tell u and exams and assignments have been brutally snatching away my time!! :'( Also, blogger has been giving me problems, so cudnt update any sooner! Plz echuse moa lah!!! :P In the midst of all the academic work, i had to attend rehearsals for an orchestral performance on saturday!!!! Yeahhhhhhh!!! We did a good job and I was really exited about the whole thing. The only issue that was pulling down my spirits was the thought that I had to carry myself in a sari. I had to drastically change my usual quick paced steps to soft ones, and stop jumping around to show off my pony dangling behind. However, I managed to carry myself much better than I imagined. Still my friends went around teasing me, 'coz they thought I was still looking like a kiddo in the sari!!! :P

Ok.. now to the most important matter of the week. This single new development has been the drive that has kept me going through monotonous hours of sitting in front of my books, trying to mug the names of enzymes and proteins. Yeahhhhhhhhhhh.... remember me telling you guys about this cuzn of mine, for whom we were looking for a girl??? Yeah yeah.. the same!!! Last Sunday, my family went down to the girl's place and the girl and my cuzn have agreed to the marriage proposal!!! Whoaaaaaaaaa!!! It all happened in a matter of less than a day. Can u believe that??? For heaven's sake i could hardly take it all in. The worst part was that i had to work in the lab last Sunday when my family were down there at my place enjoying the day. Being miles away from home can be such a pain at instances like these. I was sooooo desperate to get back home that i would not have cared if i had to swim all the way across the sea from here to india!!!

OMG... i was soooo restless. I was nagging my friend, asking her - if my cuzn wud have been in jeans or formals, if he would have gone clean shaven or with a french beard, what he mite talk to the girl, if the girl would also wear jeans and come with us to the beach and spencer plaza, if my cuz's love and care for me would change after his marriage, if he would still take me in his bike to our favourite hangout - the icecream parlour and marina beach. Yeah, as much as i was excited about the wedding bells, it made me equally apprehensive about how things mite change in a few months after the entry of this girl into our family. Of course, I have to convince myself to the truth that this new girl will share more liberty, more love, and more attention with my cuzn than I will. I am not too sure how to react to the whole turnover of events. But, it sure does make me feel quite insecure and lonely. I hope he has a wonderful beginnning to this new phase of life. I am sure he will rock as usual and i will always be there for him, as his sweet little sister :)

These apart, monday's exam was a total disaster. I literally slogged to get stuff into my head. Biochemistry. OMG. It has never been "my-kinda-thing", especially ‘coz it requires that i memorize. What I call the “exam-flunk” trauma has been haunting me until last nite. I was tryin to analyse wat had gone wrong. Did I do badly ‘coz the paper was tuf??? Was the paper tuf for all??? Was it ‘coz I didn’t put in enuf??? Or ‘coz I lacked the concentration??? Or ‘coz my lack of interest pulled me down??? I wasn’t overconfident. Probably, I was just too stressed. Untimely eating habits and insufficient sleep never do good. When the mind and heart seem so out of place, one cute movie, a lovely walk in a lonely road amidst the silence of the night and a few thoughtful words can work wonders. And it surely did. And to feel that someone takes the trouble and care to get me back to this ecstatic mood is all the more heart warming. I feel as though i have revived the lost-me. Agressively motivated. Exploding with energy. And as i always say - incurably optimistic!

I have one awesome news to tell u guys - almost like a dream come true. But i need to hold it back for a little while. Once it is confirmed, u will be the first ones to get the news!!! So, till then, keep guessing... i shall be back soon with lots to tell u... Take care... Keep smiling.. Life is not all that bad afterall...It is so much fun!!! Hugggggggggggzzzzzzzzzzz n Maaaaaaaaackkkkkkssssssssssss come your way from meeeeeeeeeeee!!! :)

Saturday, September 23, 2006

Attitude Matters!!! (pun intended)

Helllllo ppl!!! Hope all is well!!! i am doin great... and no wat... i just came bk from lab and eurekhaaaaaaaa... v got a positive result at last... after 2 months of slogging!!! Now, i can look forward to doing the next step!!!! Hehe :)

Oki.. now here is last week's updates.. my musings begin....... :)As I walked into the lecture theatre on friday afternoon, I could feel about hundred pairs of eyes giving me that oh-my-god-kinda look, making me feel uncomfy. The stares sure were not 'coz of my new hairdo, or my super cool pink top, but 'coz of the bandage that i wore on my right wrist!!! Yeah, i managed a perfect wrist sprain 2 days ago!!! Dunt ask me how, when, where or what. I have no answer. A hyper-active girl, simply doesnt know where she picks up such minor damages!!! :P So, after i felt that the pain was doin me no good, i went to my university hospital and the doc was soo damn sweet that he said - "Hey, u managed to sprain ur hand at the right time. Have the whole mid-semester break to take care of it!!" Hehe :) Wish i had such sprains when i was in school!! I could have got an excuse from doin homework and most interestingly, mom would have fed me in such a circumstance!! :P And Yessssssssss people, the whole of next week, no lectures, no assignments... but lots of pending stuff to work on, preparations for mid-sem test and of course, some freak outs as well!!! I was planning to experiment some new recipe, eat well, freak out, prepare notes - basically, was plannin to do lots of physical activity. Now, i got to wait until my wrist feels fine. And yeah, it is gettin better!!! :)

Prithz hand - firmly strapped and curbed of its usual freedom!!! :'(

Oki, gettin to the topic, last afternoon, during the 10 min break in-between lecture, my frnd and me were giggling like clowns over a punch dialog that i managed to tell her and suddenly, one of my batchmates came up to me and asked, "Hey, do you know that there is this new 24-hour suicide hotline number for students???" I gave him a super-cocktail look - blank, blunt, puzzled, shocked, surprised!!! I replied, "Sorry... was that question for me???" Then, he pointed out to my hand and conjured a question mark in thin air. I gave out a furious laugh. How could anyone ask such a dumb question to me??? Do i look like i wanna commit suicide??? Wretched?? Forlorn??? Of course not!!! I am in the best of my spirits, enjoying every moment of this phase of ma life. I never imagined that a simple sprain could get people thinking this way. As a matter of fact, if that guy had questioned me with some sort of a sarcastic smile, i would have forgiven him. (haha, did u notice the alliteration that i managed??? lol!!!) But to my utter dismay, he came up and questioned me as if he were asking me some academic doubt!!! Even after my straight reply, his face was still sans a smile. (haha, another alliteration!!!) If his question was meant to be a joke, let him know that i couldnt even manage to get a tiny-weeny smile twinched outta the corner of my lips.

Another strange incident happened this week. My frnd and i were walkin out of the tutorial class. I was to rush for my lecture, while my frnd agreed to get things ready in the lab, so that i could join her after my lecture. She asked me, "We are isolating DNA today, right??" I hastily replied, "No di, not today. May be not at all." Then, she turned furious, turned her back to me, and rushed right ahead of me. I could faintly hear her murmur, "Hey, if u are not interested, then, i am going to do it alone." I got thoroughly aggitated. Inspite of my temper, i tried to calmly explain to her as to why we mite not need to do DNA isolation that day. Then, she finally managed to give a rather rough "ok" that spoke nothing, but of her ego.

This mite seem so trivial an issue, but frankly, in my opinion, her reaction was nasty. Utterly disgusting! I hate people who, while on a discussion, simply walk away (thinking they are being too smart, making a fool out of the other) or abrupty cut a conversation. According to me, it speaks of one's intolerance, indifference, ego, dangerous short-temper or simply of one's acceptance of defeat. If i were in such a situation, i would simply accept my mistake and go on. Please dunt get to thinking that i am trying to picture myself as a very goody-goody girl. Until a year ago, I was myself a very egoistic and short tempered person. I literally got thumped. I was one of those fools who repeatedly learnt from their own mistakes. A timid girl i was, fuming with inferiority complex. Now, i have learnt to silently tell others that 'Your inferiority complex is much better than mine.' An independent life, away from home and family have by itself been wonderful teachers. I have evolved into what i am today, keeping alive my zeal and zest.

I am seriously confused as to why i begin to think this way. Its probably my age, or MY attitude that is pretty much antogonistic to my frnd's. At times, we just dont realise the stupidity of our actions and reactions. It can badly mirror our character. Anways, at the end of the day, i feel that all these thoughts cross my mind 'coz I am smiling a bit too much these days, so much so that i always feel that the other person is either smiling too little or has totally forgotten how to smile. Could also be that i am beginning to take things easy, which my associates are still tryin to learn. All these were just some random thoughts that flashed my mind and i managed to ramble about them here. This frnd and me are in good terms. It is jus her attitude that botheres me. I will tell her what i feel about it when the time is ripe. Hope i didnt confuse u guys as much as i got confused myself. LOL!!! Take care.. and have a good day... hugggggggggggzzzzzzzzzzz!!! :)

Sunday, September 17, 2006

The Desi Touch...

Yaloooooooo peoples!!! Hope u guys are having a wonderful weekend. But, bet ya, it cannot match the kinda fun i have had this weekend. Well, as usual, this post is goin to be pretty much reflective of my current ecstatic, highly-hyperactive state. No serious discussions this time. Haha!!! Happy??? I cant wait to tell u guys what has been happenin in life for the past few days.. its been an awesome roller coaster of a ride for me!!! Believe me.. i thoroughly enjoyed it and i wish that the rest of my sem could pass this way.. :P

Oki, here i goooooooooooooooooo........ (*nowadays, my blog is turning into a "dear diary" kinda thing*) LOL!!! Plz bear with me...

Thursday -

The alarm little aroused my senses and i woke up with a start realising that i had missed my 9am tutorial!!!
S*** thing!! Its a graded tutorial and i better not miss it. Previous night's struggle with assignment until 3am was beginning to teach me the first lesson of the day - "The dawn doesnt come twice to awaken the man." Later, I rang up my frnd to ask her when the next tutorial slot was and she was like - "Its oki di. Forget it, only one class na. At least u slept comfortably in your room, unlike me!!" I had a good laf and as if that were not enough, i mailed to my tutor informing her of my "sickness" and inability to attend class! Like a goody-goody girl, i pleaded for an excuse and arranged a make-up class with her!!! Rest of the day went in peace, preparing for my online quiz and tryin out a new cabbage-tomato curry. It came out really well. For the recipe, my current MRP is one BIG butterscotch icecream and a pack of ferero rocher chocolates. Simple! :P

Friday -

Haha!!! One super cool day. Brought me memories of indian life. The day started off after i snoozed the alarm almost a dozen times and finally forced myself outta bed. I began my online assignment, prepared lunch, ate and was already late for the 1pm make-up tutorial i had arranged!!! To add on to all the hullabaloo, it was raining cats and dogs. Thundering!!! I ran and screeched to a halt at the bus stop only to find the bus jus cross me. Damn it!!! I had to wait for 5 more mins for the next one. Now, 5 mins is a big thing, considering the fact that the tutorial itself lasts only an hour and it would take me another 5 mins to reach my tutorial room, even if i sprintered. Time:1.15pm. OMG!!! I was gettin too late now. So much do these people stick to their doctrines, that the bus would not leave a few mins before the scheduled time. I was so restless that i was giving the bus captain a desparate look to start the bus, but as if he were unawares of the entire world, he continued to shower the bus and scrub it with detergent or watever u call it!!! Ahhhhhhhh!!!! Now this was gettin out of my hands. I was contemplating if i should go to class so late or just chuck it.

Finally, the bus roared to life. I got in. Slow melody was playing in my ipod and little did it relax my nerves. 1.30pm - My stop arrived. I got down and soared to the lift, jus got it when it was begining to ascend. 1.33pm. Palpitating. I knocked the door and walked in. Ahhh!!! That was a record breaker. 3 mins from bus stop to tutorial room - beat me at that!! 'If only i were allowed to run in the Olympics', i thought :P Ok, now, all seats were occupied in the tutorial room. I joined another girl who was sittin on one of the tables. Tom-boyish as it seemed, i sat on the desk :P No chairs lah!! The girl passed me the attendence record!!! That's wat i was here for, wasnt i??!!Signed my name. Relaxed i was now. Hehe :) Then the tutor went on -

"In tis propulum, we shudu write down hyptiz leiku tiz - conziter grupu one ancht grupu two. Howeva, we doncht no de ikzact valu of meenz...."

I menacingly smiled at my friends who were surprised to see me (of all the people) walk in so late to class. I looked around the room to find some of them mechanically taking down notes, some checking mails in the computer (techically installed with some software that we needed to work out problems!!) and the others, chatting with their friends in msn!!! 1.45pm. I heard the tutor say - "Oki, taz it. U can go!!" Hehe :) Done!!! Rest of the day went in style. What else would you expect if i had stats lecture??? (*Prof was in casual t-shirt, jeans and sports shoes - Friday it was!!!*) :P That night, after nearly one and a half months, i had pizza!!! LOL!!!

Saturday -

Attended life sciences career day, went to a local school for mentoring students as part of my co-curricular activity. Mid-day, was in a temple with almost my entire batch of indian frnds for temple washing seva. Not to differ, I was as excited about the whole thing. Pulled up pants, seasoned my voice, began singing "Swargam yeanbathu nammaku" and cleaned the temple and washed it clean. Ah.... i felt so nice, or should i say Divine!!! LOL!!! Then, they served us super cool lunch, but jus when i touched the hot food, i realised a searing pain in my finger!!! Gosh!!! Not again, i had a cut in my right thumb. Jus now i recovered from a minor sprain that i had developed in my elbow, while
the bus captain suddenly took the bus, before i cud get seated. Ahhh!!! :( The food was so inviting, my thumb was spoiling the whole fun!!

Later that day, the best part of my weekend was to arrive. I went to the parlour with my frnd and got a layer cut for my hair!!! Now, i look so much like myself - freaky, excited and hyperactive!!! Perfectly suits my attitude. Hehe :)

Sunday -

Ah!!! Another awesome day. One of our family frnds had invited me to a function at their place. My aunt and me planned to go there exclusively for the awesome food!!! :P Though the fried rice, panner sabji, manchurian were all very inviting, i could not resist on attacking curd rice, pickle and papad!!! :P Ate my tummy full. The cool weather,, mild drizzle and the food got me into a deep 3 hour "nap"!!!

So, was that enough???!!! Hehe :) Wishing you guys an awesome week ahead.. take care... Huuuuuuugzzzzzzzzz!!! :)

p.s.: Guys, i have updated to blogger - beta version. I am unable to comment in few of your blogs which do not accept anony comments. :( However, in my blog, i guess non-beta users can select anony option and leave ur name while u comment. Thanks.

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Swarmed by questions...

Helllooooooooooo ppl!!! How u guys doin???? I am doing great. As planned, i completed all my assignments, only to realise that i have the next set of online tests and an assignment lined up for this week!!!PHEW!!! I cant wait for my mid-semester break thats coming up this month end. And yeah, can u guys believe that i am almost into completing half my semester??!! I remember how you guys were consoling me with the fact that time would fly once school begins. For sure, time is flying, out of control!!. And guys, no wat???? My teddy arrived from India this week!!! I am sooooooooo excited about it. It feels like some friend has come over to stay with me and give me good company. Thanks to my uncle who brought it for me. And yeah, my mom sent other eatables like, potato chips from Hot Chips, choc chip biscuits, cashew macroons and haldirams snacks!!! Hehe :)

And hey, here is my teddy!!! He was damn tired after the long travel from Chennai to S'pore. So, he looks really weary na!!! Hehe :)

Ok, jokes apart. Lets get down to the topic, a serious one this time. This weekend, while i was talkin to my mom, i told her that i was planning to get a haircut done. Not a very short one though. But, something which can break the monotony of my looks. As soon as the words left my mouth, immediately she protested. She sounded as if, when i get back to India with this new hair style, people might get into false impressions and pass uneasy comments. She feels that i need to maintain the identity that i have always had within my family and in my neighbourhood (be it my looks or my attitude). Who knows, if i had not come to S'pore, i might still have wanted a change. It is all a matter of exploring and getting to "feel good" about oneself. My personal opinion is that the so-called "foreign return" identity of mine has nothing to do with my change of looks (if it does), as long as i remain the same by character and attitude, which am sure i will.

This aroused other wierd questions in my mind. Why is it that certain trivial decisions that i need to take in my life need consultation??? Why cant i simply go ahead with certain thoughts??? Havn't i grown up enough to become a young adult??? Have i not had enough "hard" lessons in life that give me the experience, courage and right to take decisions my way??? If my happiness is what gives them joy, then am i not allowed to take decisions that i feel will make me happy??? Should i be worried about all the gossip that people might come up with??? Or should i bother about my dreams, wishes and desires?? Is this not my only opportunity to exploit the resources of life and learn from my successes and failures??? Or is it 'coz this is my only opprotunity that i need to take on life without risks??? Ultimately, is it not my life's decisions that i wish to take???

Now, now, dont get me wrong. Its not that i dont have the interests of my parents in mind or that i am too self-centred about my desires in life. Its my age and my immaturity that makes me come up with such questions. To tell u the truth, my mom was dead-against letting me come off to S'pore. It was a hard decision I made. Still, personally i know how much of self-councelling she had to bend herself to, so that she could one day see her daughter happily settled with her dreams fulfilled. In a way, we both have sacrificed a lot. Not to leave behind my dad. He has been one huge source of inspiration and support to both of us. God only knows how much grief and pain he kept burrowed while he was consoling my mom and trying to guide me too. Moreover, though i am the only girl in our nuclear, as well as our master family, i am happy that i was not a pampered kid. Else, i might have taken many things for granted and not have been instilled with certain basic ethics of life.

Going back to my random thoughts. Its probably every mother's nature to look upon her son/daughter as a kid, no matter how old they are. It is also parental nature to be protective over their chilren and make sure that every decision taken by their kid be right, especially if the kid is far away from home. That's probably why my parents insist that i stick to their suggestions. Considering the fact that i am still dependent on them, it is true that my parents have the right over certain paths that i am goin to take in my life. Being all by myself, i have the complete freedom to do what i want, but it is upto me to limit myself with the space i have. I need to have self-control and i need to keep my people in trust. I need to maintain my individuality. Now that i have seen more of this world, my attitude towards life has surely changed (for the good that is). A closed nerdy brain that was once before, now feels the need for some adventure, few mis-givings, small lies and excitement. Its in this stage that i can explore the world to the wierdest of imaginations and also learn my valuable lessons in life. For heaven's sake, i cant be experimenting with my hairstlye when i am 50 years old or go out on late night outings!!! :P

So, i have loads to think about and take certain decision of life, ensuring that i hurt none and also make myself happy. That, i believe is the greatest challenge of life. In no way do i mean to hurt my mom or my dad's feelings in this regard.
Its just an honest flow of thoughts that i have scribbled. I still wish to be identified as their daughter. I shall sincerely respect their decisions for, i have also experienced how bad things can get if i dunt. So, no hair cut until i get a green signal from mom!! :) Oki, i guess i shall conclude it here. These thoughts have been haunting my mind since this weekend. Now that i have given them a vent, i can rest in peace and go on with my lessons. So, people... take care... have an awesome week. I hope to be back with something refreshing next time.. Till then... Chiao!!! Hugggzzzz!!!

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Racing at 24hrs/day!!!

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii people!!! Hope you guys are having a good week. Am really sorry that i couldnt update my space any sooner. Frankly, my mind and brain have been frantically working that they dont seem to enter the trance required to coin a post!!! I just barged in to wave out to u guys a BIG hi! I didnt wanna come here with a post that says "I will be away!" I feel it would not do justice to my space which i have created to pour out my feelings. Anyways, i have revived from that trauma of my lost watch, and now am back to my high spirits (The very next day after i had lost my watch, I had 2 big scoops of raspberry icecream and some other nutty nutty icecream. All my sorrow, melted as rapidly as did the icecream in my mouth. So now, moa is back to form!! LOL!!!)

Frankly, i have 2 assisgnments, a 700 word essay, 1 online quiz to complete by the next 2 days. All this is apart from my 5-hour lab sessions, 4 hour lectures, other co-curricular activities, cooking, laundry and sleep that i need to catch up with everyday!!!! So please bear with me for not coming up with a decent post. But the best part is that, i just got new speakers for my room!!! My obsession with music and your motivation to improve my singing talent, forced me to get them. So, i managed to save some money the previous month and grabbed this one!!! Now, i have some good company to sit with while i go on to complete my assignments!!! With no topic to blog about, i thought i would leave u guys with some pics of my room.

In the hope that i would have completed most of my pending studies and grabbed all my lost sleep, some good food and of course, recharge myself, i bid adieu!!! Chiao!!!! Take care and huggggggggzzzzzzzz!!! :)