Tuesday, August 29, 2006

Bless Me...


Hello people!!! I know i am back sooner than i had promised. But, as u are well aware by now, my patience takes a back seat when it comes to blogging and telling you guys something. So, here i am. This time, i am sorry to tell you guys that i dont have any good news to pass on. Infact, the very reason why i pounced back here is b'coz of monday morning bluez!!! Just when i was pleased with the fact that i had done one of my best preparations for the presentation to be given to my mentor this morning, i discovered that my wrist watch was missing!!! :'(


For a moment, i thought i was only being blinded. But, when i looked closer into the place where it usually lies, i sprang back to life and I literally turned stark white. Buckling under pressure, i rummaged through every inch of my room. Turned the wardrobe upside down, surveyed behind the bed, cleaned my college bag, peeked into every ounce of laundry, ran to the cluster kitchen, put my head into the fridge, checked the washroom. Hapless. With a heavy heart and a tear restless to get out of my eyes, i wore my other spare watch and rushed to the bus stop. As the bus rolled out, images flashed. It was a fine friday evening. I had just got my 10th class results. My parents gifted me this beautiful watch. She (the watch) had been with me ever since. My only live and alive partner, whenever i was alone. Faithful. Trustworthy.


Clad in a black leather strap, the crisp white square dial, with shiny silver needles made her look ever so glamourous. She agreed so well with any piece of attire. So many envied her. That watch of mine - Titan Raga. Ah!!! So sincere had she been. Ticking away tirelessly. Everytime i took a casual glance at her,she smiled back in reply. It seemed like the whole world was falling in. A strange emptiness began to swallow me. I could hear her ticking. Far far away. I could hear her calling out to me - to take her by my wrist. But her words seemed to dissolve in mid-air, little letting me trace my way to her. A huge chunk of my life, seemed missing. Erratic voices. Broken memories. Shattered times. Lingering thoughts.


This might seem so trivial, but, i treasured that watch and the thought that it is now no more with me, seems like a colossal loss. I was wondering if this were my fault or my fate. Probably, the other watch thought that it needed some attention from me. Poor thing!!! "The value of certain things/people is seldom known, until lost." How very true!!! Anyways, this loss seems to have evoken some feelings that were inert for so long. And so have they poured out, better late then never...




Resting was I in your warm womb,
Kicking frantically on those tender tissues.
So scared, so confined - I mite have felt,
Yet, your protective aura killed it all.

"Its a girl!!!" they finally exclaimed.
A beautiful joyous tear slipped your weary eyes.
So happy was I to be born - just for you.
Rebirth, it was for thou.

In blithe spirits was I that day,
When at last, I got a head taller than you.
Forever hence, have i grown,
Pampered by your unconditional love.

We then reached the threshold of separation,
Or so it seemed.
Far away have i flown, leaving you all alone.
Curse my selfish dreams!

Years have flipped by, so silently,
Little did i realise how less overt my love was.
Nonchalant were the words i have spoken,
Shattered have I many a times, your innocent heart.

A benign hug would have worked wonders,
A gentle kiss would have spoken it all.
I beg your mercy for keeping this secret from you -
"I love you and I miss you, my dear mom!!!"

Bless Me.

32 comments:

brute said...

life is interesting .... in the end some of our greatest pains b'com our ur greatest strenghts.....

Himavan said...

Oops...I am very saddened by hearing the loss of your faithful and trust worthy alive partner..."wrist watch". I can imagine how you might be feeling...:(

That was truely amazing poem. It brought me tears. Your mom is surely proud of you. I am sure her blessings are always with you...:)
Hope those blessings and good luck will bring back your partner...:)

KK said...

Hey! nice poem...Your mom should be very proud of having a daughter like you.
Hope you find your watch soon...My best wishes for it...

Syam said...

that watch is lucky it escaped from you....
poem really nice (apdinnu poi sollala...atha padikave illa ) :-)

Bharani said...

//The value of certain things/people is seldom known, until lost// - Very True

s0ulasylum said...

awww.. u poor u.. did u sweep ur floor/vacuum ur carpet.. its amazing how many things u find hidden on the floor.. i know how it feels.. im like the most absent minded person to walk the surface of the earth.. i hope u find it soon tho! ur watch attachment reminds me of my dad.. he used to wear my grandfathers watch tht was gifted to him whn he got chosen into B school in Calcutta.. and my dad lost it bk then.. its been about 20-25 yrs.. and my dad has not worn another watch after tht.. he refuses to.. till i bought him one last yr with my first pay! :)

Keshi said...

u miss ur mum sweety? Call her up. Lovely poem!

U lost ur precious watch oh no! Old gifts from dear ones have a great sentimental value. How did u lose it?

Keshi.

Has to be me said...

Oh Prithz, sad 2 note abt ur lovely watch. LOL @ u checking it in the fridge. But girl, check properly w/o getting perturbed & Im sure uwld find it. Did u check inside u bag etc? Good luck & I pray that u shall get it soon! And thats a lovely poem.

Ramya Shankar said...

Oops! I can still imagine u sitting in Sridharan class, with that casual wrist movement!
Strange how time flies!
Good luck with the watch hunt !

Krithika said...

:') wat a beautiful,touchy poem prithz..dont worry!after all,they are the ones who treasure us for wat we are..and wil take our side always..so ur dreams are not selfish..and u'l be back in 3yrs time :) :) and abt the watch,i can,i can understand..did u leave it sumwhere outside?**rewind,rewind**
p.s-cute diplay picc!!
-and forgot to tell u,i dont get the song u've recorded

Priya said...

That was indeed a gr8 poem. I know how it feels when its so precious and don't wanna loose it. I have a small clock which my mom gave me. It stopped working after so many years, but I still have it in her memory.
Just relax and think what all you did from mornign till night and you will come up where you misplaced it.

Krithika said...

') wat a beautiful,touchy poem prithz! i lowwwvedd it..u've written it unimaginably well :)dont worry!after all,they are the ones who treasure us for wat we are..and wil take our side always..so ur dreams are not selfish..and u'l be back in 3yrs time :) :) and abt the watch,i can,i can understand..did u leave it sumwhere outside?**rewind,rewind**
p.s-cute diplay picc!!
-and forgot to tell u,i dont get the song u've recorded

gils said...

wow..sentiyo senti post...its ring for me..my mom gave it to me wen i was in tenth..sai baba foto poata plastic ring..my friend told me i would break it in one month goin by my tack record...i kept it for ten years..it broke sometime back :( lost interest in rings after tt

Subramanian Ramachandran said...

Tooooooooooooo big for me to read it rite now.. marking my attendance for the time being will return back to study it later sariyaaaaaaaaa?

Prasanna Parameswaran said...

Fantastic! Thats a beautiful ode to your mother! Its never too late express your love- for the more you delay the more you miss the magical moments of joy and companionship in life! Great post! Do keep writing!

prithz said...

@ brute:

Wow!!! Beautifully said. Damn true!!

@ contented:

:( Yeah, I was depressed for a couple of days... but got to move on.. dad said he would get me a new one!!! But, anyways, i am not too excited abt it.. since i still miss my sweet watch!! :(

OMG, did u really weep for this!!! Shit thing!! Chill yaar!!! Mothers are the best things that can happen to us and their blessings are sure to go a long way :)

@ kk:

Thnx KK!!! Hope i can find my watch soon. And yeah, i had 2 scoops of icecream to let me forget the pain of the irreplaceable loss!!! Its like, ppl drinkin when they are depressed kinda thing!!! LOL!!! Still, i guess i would have felt better if u had gotten me Butterscotch icecream!!! LOL!!! I am not plannin to gaze into the sky anymore...so, u better come down to s'pore and get me one BIG bicket full!!! :P

@ syam:

Yen yennaku mattum neenga ezhuthara comments lam ivalo confusing ah irruku nu puriyala??? (*prithz scratchin her head*)

@ bharani:

Yeah!!! :)

@ s0ulasylum:

Oh girl!!! U hafta chk my room. It so small and i dutn have a carpet here. I have chkd everywhere... my room is small enough that the watch canoot miss my eyes!!!

And abt ur dad, OMG!!! So much emotionally attached was he. But so damn sweet of u to have got him a watch wid ut first pay. :) Huggggzzzzzz!!

@ keshi:

Yeah Keshi!!! i miss all my family bk home, esp ma dad and mum!! I do speak to them everyday. :)

And, Keshi, frankly, i dunno where i misplaced my watch. Most probably, i guess it slipped from my wrist when i was comin bk from shoppin. So many bags i had in ma hand!!! :(

@ has to be me:

Thnx!! Glad u liked the poem.I checked my room twice or thrice. Then ma frnd came over and checked too. I did chk all my bags. No luck :( If its not in my room, then it surely has slipped my hand somewhere in the roads of s'pore :( C'oz i always keep my watch in its place as soon as i get bk to room. U cant find it elsewhere. Never ever.

@ ramya:

Hey, enna wrist movement??? Me not remember!!

@ krithika:

Rewind?? I have done so much rewinding krithi!!! If i do anything more, i will be travellin back in time like in a time machine, bk in to my previous janmam!! LOL!!

Anyways, forget it. Glad u liked the poem. And, hey, i'l take another 6 years to get bk to India (i'l have to serve a bond) :(

@ priya:

Thnx priya!!! I did try rewinding my memory. But, if i have lost it on my way bk from shoppin, i cant possible trace my way bk to find it. Dunno in whose hands it is now. I simply hope it in better hands. :)

My grandpa has got one really old sony tape recorder, which he treasures till date,tho it doesnt work so well. It literally screeches!!! But its got some sentimental value.

@ gils:

Oopppssss!!! really sad to note that!!! Anyways, try gettin over it like i did and get urself a new one. Some rings like that make u feel courageous and strong and secure, rite???

@ r.subramanian:

Hehe :) Take ur time.. and do "take time off from office work" LOL!!!

@ indianangel:

Thnx a ton!!! Ur words are damn true!!! :)

Unknown said...

oki, cool down. Lucky watch poidichuna inna. Oru watch ponadhaku ivalo sentimenta? Great!

KK said...

//Its like, ppl drinkin when they are depressed kinda thing!!! //
Its all the effect done by the scotch(Whisky) present in butterscotch...That's why I am not getting you butterscotch...may be I can get you some other flavour... ;)

Keshi said...

oh well...u know once I lost my fav watch and I couldnt find it anywhere at home. U wouldnt believe it I found it after 3days under my pillow!

Keshi.

golmaalgopal said...

oh...dats bad....don't u worry bout dat...u'll get it soon...u wouldn't believe it...once i got bak my watch aft 2 yrs...it was beneath a book(got it while cleanin my cupboard)...and dat poem's really gud...

Ganesh Ranganathan said...

Police'la complaint kudu....kandupidichi tharuvaanga...:-))

Macho Girl said...

Awww... don't worry about the watch. I know how sometimes inanimate objects just become ur best frnds and a source of comfort... But nothing last forever in life and the secret to living a full life is to learn to move on.

But i will pray from the very bottom of my heart that u getur watch back :)

The Boss (:D) said...

oh ive lost a couple f watches too.. its positively depressing..

prithz said...

@ the brown eyed one:

Thnx girl!!! I love watches too!!! Take care and have a wonderful time at your engagement. Hope you arent tensed now. :)

@ karthik b.s.:

Haiyooooo Karthikkkk!!! Adhudhan sonne illa, though this mite seem so trivial, it does hit me very badly... i havnt lost something so precious.. first time (*touchwood*).. so me fullah senti :(

@ kk:

Indha madiri dabaikara velai lam vaendam... enna aanalum, neenga yennaku butterscotch icecream dhan vaangi kodukaringa... if i get high after eating that, then, i am sure u will drop me back safe at my home in a mercedes benz cab!!! :P

Also, since u downloaded and passed on Promiscuous song for me, i have given 1 ounce excemption frm the 1 bucket that u owe me :P (u see, i have to take care that i dunt put on weight :P)

@ keshi:

Whoa!!! Hope something like that can happen in my life too :)

@ oliveoye:

Oh yeah!! I shall make sure i dunt lose my time :) And hey, thnx for dropping by. Welcome!!! :)

@ golmaalgopal:

Thnx a lot! Glad u liked the poem.

And hey, really nice to see that u got bk ur watch. I jus chked my book shelf after readin ur comment. No luck :(

@ ganesh ranganathan:

Nalla idea!!! BTW, i thought u didnt know tamil. Or do u???

@ macho girl:

Oh!!! Thnx Girl!!! That was sooo damn sweet of you!!! Hugggggzzzz!!!

Sometimes, inanimate things get so close to our heart, that when they go missing, its like our close frnd is no longer with us. :(

@ the boss(:d):

Hmmm... hope it were that way for me :(

Ganesh Ranganathan said...

I know tamil to a certain extent....not a very good speaker though...

starry said...

Hey I hope you found your watch.really neat poem. beautiful ,your mom must be really proud of you.

Archun said...

ohhh...sorry about your watch da!! but it has brought out all these beautiful thoughts even in the wake of its separation! you're right...we don't always realise the value of something when we have it...

prithz said...

@ ganesh ranganathan:

Oh!!! Oki. Btw, did u note that i completed ur long-pending tag??!! :)

@ starry nights:

Thnx starry!!! I havent found my watch yet!!! :(

@ archun:

Words best flow when u are in blues or when u are feeling very low!!!

Keshi said...

hehe yeah.

Fingers crossed!
Keshi.

Syam said...

enna madam new week vandhuruchu new post kanom :-)

Unknown said...

innadhu idhu? No new post? Un friend, sorry, un enemy naala unakku ezhudha thonaliya? :)

Worshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhht!

prithz said...

@ keshi:

Yeah! Thanks Keshi! :)

@ syam:

I thought u havnt competely read this post!! :P

@ karthik b.s.:

Hey!!! Jus now updated... :) Too much work lah!!! Not 'coz of frnd or enemy!!! LOL!!