Saturday, August 26, 2006

Spiralling my life, all alone.



Hello people!!! Hope you guys had an awesome week and are rocking your weekend as usual. I am doin fine. Lab work and classes are keeping me busy and active. My zest is alive and keeping my spirits high. However, this afternoon, after i returned from a seminar on mentoring, my mind was racing with mixed feelings. I was feeling lonely and deserted. My friend and I had planned to go out to shop for milk, yogurt and some veggies. Unfortunately for me and fortunately for her, her boyfriend had different plans and i had to give up mine. In a way, i thought i was being ditched. Frankly, i was planning to pugnaciously ramble about "how it feels to have a close friend who's got a boyfriend"!!!



Probably, its because i dunt know how it feels to have a boyfriend that i got so pissed off when she said she is going out with her guy. I didnt want to turn cantankerous and spoil her day. I simply exclaimed, "Ok, enjoy yourself!!" So saying, i tried calling some of my other friends for this lame shopping, but they didnt seem so interested. Dead end. With i-pod plugged into my ears and a Jeffey Archer book in my bag, i headed to the bus stop. Alone. All along the way, i was counselling myself to the fact that i need to accept certain things in life in their stride. I was silently thanking my patience and tolerance for helping me cope with the unpleasantness of this delirium. I visited a temple and tried to get rid of the cacophony of thoughts that were racing in my mind. I left the temple. Confident. Strong. Motivated. Re-energised. Like an incurable optimist.





Ok, now that i am back to my state of "Joie de vivre", i shall walk you guys through some ecstatic moments i had in university this week. This incident happened in lab few days ago. There is this "danger zone" in the lab which contains a carcinogenic chemical, Ethidium bromide. My friends and i had set up a reaction in that area. While the reaction was running, we moved away to the computer cluster in the lab to check mails. One of the Honours students working there, came out of her way to tell us that, we had to decrease the voltage of the eqipment that was running our reaction. Enthusiastically, i moved to the "danger zone" and adjusted the knob and turned to acknowledge her timely advice with a smile. (*did i get the "c" right on advice?? tel me if i am wrong.. often get confused *) Ok, moving on. While doing so, little did i realise that my hands were naked. Without gloves. This Honours girl, smirked at me and casually, in her monotonous tone, said " Oh, my dear friend!! You have to wear your gloves!!!" The words stung me like a bullet. Immediately, i rushed to the wash basin, emptied half of the liquid wash there and the whole sink turned into a bubble bath area, foaming profusely and the aroma intoxicating the entire lab!!! I had a funny feeling that the nerves and muscles in my face were entangling. Portraying a fool out of me. I could feel my metamorphosis!!!



Generally, i am this very cautious and careful girl when it comes to lab work, or anything for that matter. I believe in perfection. I was stunned to realise that it was me who had commited such a stupid blunder. Adding to the fact that i was exasperated with myself, what got me more so was that, this girl was watching me walk to danger zone without gloves on. She could have easily warned me before i touched the machine. I accept that it totally slipped my mind, but still, if she were soo keen in telling us about changing the volatage, as a "well-wisher", she could have cautioned me. "So dumb", i thought. My clumsy reflexes that dad often complained about, seemed far better than hers. The intellectual rating that i held her in, have come stooping down after this incident.




So, now, Prithz is being extra cautious about her life. In a way, it is very challenging and enthralling to take up such projects, though they mite even cost your life. I sincerely hope that my mom is not reading this, else, i mite have to abandon this project and take my next flight back home!!! Oki, anyways, thats about one interesting event that happened. The other two are better expressed pictorially.



The pic below shows the beautiful new book i bought. Its going to be my bible for the years to come and i am going to treasure it for the rest of my life. "Molecular Biology of the Cell" by Bruce Albert et. al. I am sure this will not be in the list of pillows into which i will fall asleep, while reading thru. (Last sem, my organic chem book fell in that list!!!) :p



Now, gals, hook up!!! I got this earring in my faculty bazaar last week. Have been waiting to show you guys. My obsession with pink seems to be increasing exponentially every day!!!



Lastly, i am really glad to tell u this: 31 posts. 5 months. And now, i have crossed my first milestone of achieving 1000+ profile views. Am damn thankful to u guys who have kept me so engrossed in blogging which has now become an inevitable part of my life. First thanks to my cousin, Vicky who got me into blogging. If not for him, i would have missed something that is now a huge part of my life. Thanks a ton da!!! So, that's about it for now. Take care. Have a stupendous sunday and a memorable week. Huuuuggggzzzzz!!! Will catch up wid ya soon!!! Ciao!!! :)


48 comments:

brute said...

hmmm.... good post da... and this particular one tested my vocab...(gosh!!! i donno know few words tht u used....but then thnks at least i came across them..:))....and the lab incident which u described made me remeber this particular incident in +2.... well i dont remember the names of the chemicals.....so for tht test i had to pour some ML of some chemical solution into the test tube which was in a glass jar.... so i lifted the jar and downed it into the test tube not realizing the jar had a glass lid on it.... and thts it ....glass lid was faaaaaaaaallllllllingggggggg and i saved it frm breaking ...thnks to my football skills and timely reflexes i landed my foot of the lid just in time before it HIT the floor........... yipeeeeeee ....no damage done....

Bharani said...

Too good post. Even the US visit of mine thought me to be independent...becoz nobody cares abt others here..u cannot except someone to come and heal your wound when u r hit..makeup urself and keep going...

U have some exciting project on the list...i really miss the college life :(

Himavan said...

Oh, dear! I know how it feels sometime to be all alone...But I hope and am off sure you are strong enough to pull through it in time to come...Cheer up girl...:)

Well, about the "gloves" stuff...The girl should have warned you before...:( In this case it happend to a bitter experience! I am certain that you will never ever forget your gloves in lab again...:)

With books like organic chemistry,I am sure everyone gets sleep...hehe.:)

I have good experinces going through those bazars....and am away from girly stuff...:P

Venkatesh said...

Hey Pritz.. nice post.. we all feel lonely sometimes when you are far from home.. Howver, the whole exercise will make you strong and independent.. :-)

Having a companion is nice.. but the freedom being single is not bad at all..

The lab incident, you cannot really blame the other person for not warning you.. ;-) You gotta be careful. Glad, I am not working in these dangerous Chemistry labs.. electronics labs are far better, the worst you can do it get yourself burned with solder iron, or a little firework bringing up new boards, or a little shock..
Good luck with "the cells"... nice earrings..

Subramanian Ramachandran said...

hi prithz long time............ guess you are sooooooooooooo busy

enna prithz enna ithu.......... immmmmmmmmmmam periyyyyyyyyyya post........ :)

well, more than the length of the post, itz the number of topics u have covered in this.... Etho "Learn Java in 24 hours" class kulla nulainja maathiri iruku..kaalaila introduction to computers la aarambichu sayangalam How to design an Enterprise Java Bean la mudikara maathiri.......

What will i reply for........

(a) The Friend who left you and rather went out with her boyfriend

(b) The girl who didnt have the courtesy to warn you rather chose to mock at you after you've done the blunder

or for some other things too u've covered in this post...... ore naalila 5 post eluthirukke nee.. :p

Neway....... Take care.... enjoy life.. Have Fun :)

Ramya Shankar said...

As for the friend, friendship is so subtle that its not about being together always. Sometimes it feels better to go out alone and spend quality time with yourself. See how much you learn when you are alone.
Good luck with everything and join the "Am addicted to blogging" bandswagon !
Take care girl, we're always there for you! Love ya.

KK said...

Hey! dont you worry that you are alone. It just happens in life...take it in the stride...
Well may be the girl in the lab took it for granted that you will be wearing the gloves and didnt notice until she saw you and told you...So take care of yourself when you are in the lab... the "Molecular Biology of the Cell" book looks attractive...
Oh no not Pink! Btw new earnings to bring your stats prof's attention to you?? uhn??? ;) tell he truth.... :)

KK said...

Congrats for your 1000 profile views...Wish you many more profile views...Calls for a vethakozhambu treat!!!

Forgot to post this in my previous comment.

Ganesh Ranganathan said...

cool post, kiddo....

Once I heard that ethidium bromide is carcinogenic I never even went near it, but my staff told me the concentration they add is too low to be harmful, but it doesn't hurt to be cautious, and the girl was right about the voltage thing...you won't get the strands right if the voltage is too high...

Great to read that you are from biology/biotech too...

And you have to adjust with your friend's boyfriend...But I admit they can be irritating, my best friend used to get all lovey-dovey with his gal leaving me with nothing to do....PUKE...

Krithika said...

ehhh prithz!! congratsss!! for completing 31 posts!and abt the lab incident,mistakes occur once in a while..so u can forgive urself..n abt ur friend leaving u for her bf :( i have had loads like these..thats the problem with girls,u never know when they're goin2 let u down :(..wat a warm post..and luk who's talkin abt language! :)
I loved these lines.i was a bit low today and this cheered me up :)
All along the way, i was counselling myself to the fact that i need to accept certain things in life in their stride. I was silently thanking my patience and tolerance for helping me cope with the unpleasantness of this delirium. I visited a temple and tried to get rid of the cacophony of thoughts that were racing in my mind. I left the temple. Confident. Strong. Motivated. Re-energised. Like an incurable optimist.

Prasanna Parameswaran said...

Nice post! BTW the chemical u mentioned was Ethilium Bromide and not Ethidium Bromide - is that a typo??! Forgive my ignorance on chemistry If Im wrong here!

Macho Girl said...

I am the careless one in the lab :P People have to scream at me to remind me to wear my gloves every time!!!

And hey, who doesn't feel kinda bad when a friend "ditches" you and goes out with someone else? We have all been there, haven't we? I also hate that feeling. But what you chose to do was an excellent choice! I must learn a few lessons on patience from u!!

Harish said...

The only thing i remember my lab was for he pungent smell that only i cld mix and turn the lab ino Indralogam. Be careful gal :-)

Sudarshan said...

Hey I love your enthusiasm:-) All your posts are so optimistic and nice..reading them makes me feel refreshed :-)

I've got into situations like you too: I meant the boyfriend thing lol.I get angry if one of my male friends ditches me and goes out with a girl...but with a no nonsense girl lol.If she's okay in my views, then its fine:-)

I was far from perfect in labs lol...Always shaky!!!

Continue being optimistic like you are..the world will be at your feet:-)

Intrepid traveller's dairy said...

hi da...atleast u learn from ur mistakes....i have had so many incident in my chem lab...every week we have to work on 2 labs and sometimes the chemicals we use are extremely toxic...i would be working without my goggles...and my instructor would yell it out standing at his table...embarrassing!!!!in biology...i would wear gloves even though i wouldnt even go near the specie..leave alone disecting that thing...my friends have another reason to laugh at me...

btw,dont feel ditched di...after all those mixed feelings,you learnt to control ur emotions...deal with them and act mature...and u even payed a visit to the temple...think abt all the things u learnt from this....chumma dont feel dejected da...n yeah....i updated my blog after a long while...

gils said...

carcinogic chemicals...!!whoa..u osund as if u r in some futuristic place :)hav u listened to "Hearts of Stone"...chk it outsometime...

gils said...

btw...tt book looked rt out of Robin cook :D

Keshi said...

Prithz most of the time we r all alone...no matter what, no matter how many friends we have, we end up alone when it comes to making ourselves happy. So just keep smiling and move on in any situation. Hugggggggggz!

Keshi.

Anonymous said...

Hey,
thats must have been a close call..thnak god ur safe and nothing untowards happened!
All the best

prithz said...

@ brute:

Thnx Avinash!!! :)

And, Whoaaaaaaa!!! You jus caught the test tube at the nick of the moment i guess. Good that your football skills came handy!!! :p

@ bharani:

Thnx Bharani!! :)

I have learnt to be independent and it is such a huge lesson in life. Sometimes, we need to get out of our comfort zone to learn lessons. :)

@ contented:

Hmmm.. Yeah, i know you can relate quite well to what i am talking about. Sailing in the boat, we are. :(

Anyways, sorry if i offended ur subject. But, generally i liek organic chem, but last sem, it was horrible and our prof did his best to demotivate us :(

And yeah, science bazaar's rock.. so much to buy. but cant afford to get everything na...

@ venkatesh:

Oki, i surrender boss!!! I know i should have been more careful. I am bein extra careful nowadays.

Anyways, abt being single, i am really enjoyin the freedom and the lessons i learn on being alone. Though it is very hard to take in at times, certain things got to be learnt the hard way na... So, no worries... i am turning a stronger girl with every passing incident...

@ r.subramanian:

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!! How r u??? Long time, i havent sen u around... u seem to be settled in ur office. Its time u sue ur boss!!! :p

Anyways, i realised that the post was running quite long, but i couldnt help it. I wanted to pour out everthing to u guys. But, i am really glad, u all read the post with so much patience and replied to every detail i feeded in. Thnks a ton!!! :)

@ ramya:

Thnx a ton di Rumz!!! That was so damn sweeeet!!! :)

And yeah, i know friendship is not abt bein together all the time. Its jus that as a friend, we need to take care that we dont hurt the other person in such trivial issues. :)

@ kk:

Hey, no tension!!! Thanx a lot!!! :)

And, no!!! The earring wasnt to lure my stats prof!!! :P

Thnx for all ur sweet words... these are wat that keep me goin... :)

@ ganesh ranganathan:

Whooooaaaaa!!! You major in biotech too!!! That's amazing!!! :)

We did manage to get some bands inthe gel electrophoresis, but the were hardly about 100-200kb.. no use, we were looking for something around 2Kb bands.. :( We are doin it all over again now... :(

Anyways, abt the boyfriend thing, i have now got used to her excuses... so no problems.. :)

@ krithika:

Hey Krithi... really glad i was able to cheer u up!!! :) U are jus awesome with your language. Dutn u try to be too modest ok!! :p The lines u have mentioned took me nearly half an hour to conjour!!!

And yeah, mistake are to be learnt from .. but u know something.. "I hate mistakes, but they love me!!! Bah!!! Mistakes are such flirts!!" :p

@ indianangel:

Thnx a ton!!! Glad u liked hte post.

Well, i dont think it was a typo. You can chk out here if u wanna know about EtBr.

@ macho girl:

Hehe!!! Learn from me is it.. u gotten crazy or something???

Anyways, jus try to be careful in your lab.. sometimes,they may even penalise for not wearin gloves. :(

@ harish:

Hehe... are u talkin about H2S?? LOL!!!

@ sudarshan:

Wow!!! Thnx a ton!!! Am happy that i am living up to the "name of my blog".. As i said, temple and blogsville have turned me into an "incurable optimist" :)

You been in situations too!!! Oh... and ur reaction.. OMG... ROTFL!!! :)

@ random thoughts from chennai to canada:

Hi di Suchi!!! So sad abt ur lab thingie :( Be careful in ur life sciences lab in university di...

And abt the boyfriend thing.. i dutn care much now.. i have vented out all my emotions, i am feeling much better... so nothin to worry... i need to give her her time too rite... poor thing!!! (*ultimately,i am the one sympathising i guess*)

Updated ur blog at last!!! I'l chk di.. :)

@ gils:

Hehe :) I'l chk it out!!! dutn worry... EtBr isnt so alien.. very common in life sciences and chem lab...

@ keshi:

Huggggggggzzzzzzzzzz Keshi!!! Your words are so damn true... I am becomin a brave girl, as i pass evry day all alone and independent.. :) Actually, u guys dunt make me feel so lonely.. thnx a lot for being there...

@ anand:

Yeah!!! Thnx for ur wishes... :)

Himavan said...

Oh, it wasnt any offense....I really mean by what I said. I too get sleep when I start to read organic chem...and it isnt my fav subject...Though I am into polymer, you know what I have a obligation to master it in my PhD...as I am getting my PhD in chemistry...:(

Unknown said...

oyiiiiiiii....

adhu inna ear ringaa? illa puta (locka)???? Paathu kaadhu valika pogudhu! :)

and "The cell". is it the name of a subject book?? I have just read a novel "The Cell" by one Brithsh author Colin Forbes! Coincidence!

And mom-ku theriya koodatha?? Appadi inna sollite nu momku theriya koodadhu??

the spelling of "advice" is correct! me thinks!

And last but the least. My fav. tamil film dialogue:

"Figure-a paathavudane frienda cut panravan edhiri dhaane!"

same applies to you as:

"Boyfriend-a paathavudane frienda cut panraval edhiri dhaane!"
hehehe! :)

Syam said...

andha chemical name ellam paartha MARS poitu vandha effectu...onnum puriyala... :-)

Congratulations for reaching a new mile stone...

prithz said...

@ contented:

Ok. Enjoy your PhD work!!! Am sure you are goin to rock it!!! :)

@ karthik b.s.:

Romba kindala poochu illa ungalukku???? Ungalooda girl friend ippdi oru earring kaepa, appo muzhikka poringala, illa vaangi kodukka poringala nu paapom!!! Deal!!! :p

Amma ku indha madiri life threatening project pandrenu therinja, tension aiduvaanga, adhadhan sonnen... :)

@ syam:

Hehe :) Seri seri.. freeah vidunga.. Ungala madiri sila peru irukarthu naala dhan, indha milestone lam :) Thnx!!! :)

s0ulasylum said...

oops looks like i've missed out on a lot the last coupla days! so many posts to catch up with! heh! :)

well firstly.. im a chemi major myself and comng from me.. sweetie. u gotta listen to this.. you have to take your safety instructions seriously.. i've seen way too many accidents in the lab.. even where i work right now.. in industry they dont let us do anythg unless we're equipped with hard hats.. gloves.. safety glasses , steel toe shoes.. etc etc.. ur getting the drift right? SAFETY first!!!!!!!!

secondly.. abt ur frnd ditching.. well when u have a bf.. u'll be ditching everyone left right n center.. haha.. so dont worry abt it... revenge is sweeeeeett!! :D

thirdly.. me loves pink too.. and loved ur pink earrings.. ima huge dangling earring fan myself.. have tons n tons of them.. :) d'ya know wht ur goin to wear it with?
phew loooong comment..
u take care girlie.. catch ya laterss..

prithz said...

@ s0ulasylum:

Thnx a lot S0ulasylum!!! I will remember that. I am very cautious nowadays...Duncha worry :)

You too crazzy abt earrings is it????!!! Wow!!! I have a big collection too.... and yeah, i have pretty many pink clothes to suit them with this earring.. :)

And abt the ditchings, nevermind... i can imagine how it mite feel.. probably, i'l do that too someday... :p

KK said...

God save these pink lovers.... :)
(Jus kidding gals...)

s0ulasylum said...

pink is a pretty color!!! ok??? and its no longer girlie.. all those men who are comfortable with their masculinity and deftly not gay also wear this color and carry it off with aplomb.. whns ur bday kk??.. pri and I are gifting u a pink shirt! :P

KK said...

Yikes!!! Shirt in Pink????....chi chi...

s0ulasylum said...

yes shirt in pink and foto in bright color and put on exhibition on orkut!!!! hahaha.. wht say pri?

Keshi said...

thats the way, huggggggz!

Keshi.

KK said...

@S0ul, where do you get such Ideas??? is it because u eat a lot of ...... :)

s0ulasylum said...

kk: no its coz im interacting on a daily basis with certain .. errr.. how can i say it nicely.. well.. peeps like you who bring out the creative person in me!! :D

gils said...

ada paavamay kk soul..elarum senthu prithza keduthu kutichuvara akiduveenga pola. :) ditching left rt centera...hmm... "inna seithrai oruthal avar naana nannayam seithu vidal" epovo palalvan busla padichathu...arthamlaam kekkapdaathu...my 2 cents..."DO UNTO OTHERS...n RUNAWAY FRM TT PLACE LIKE HELL :D" ..choory prithz,,me maths..chemistry wl always b a mystery to me

KK said...

S0ul, I am happy that I am able to bring out the creative person from a otherwise non-creative person :p
:D

Gils, Kuttisevuru agurathu agamairukirathu, nothing is in our hands...Its already written play writer, we are mere actors who play our role... :p

s0ulasylum said...

gils/kk: I dont understand this tamil!!!!!! * wailing *!!!! plisssss to translate!! :(

kk: from an otherwise non-creative person like me???????? u say??????? grrr.. well well.. creativity is understood by someone who has an aesthetic sense for which first up you need sense.. err... which you dont have :P sooooooooo.. i dont blame you for ur misjudgements!!! hahahaha.. :D

KK said...

S0ul, Gils told that we both are spoiling Prithz and he quoted a adage, which he has translated...
For this I said that no one can spoil anyone and people get spoilt by themselves :)
See how nice I am, I argued for you too and you call me senseless... :( Well its not a good person's world anymore... :)

prithz said...

@ gils, kk @ s0ulasylum:

Aga!!! Jus when i was abt to translate, for soul, KK did it!!! Thnx KK!!! Good job!!! S0ul and me are good girls only .. rite girl???!!! KK only baaaaaad boy.. wont get us icecream or cheese cake... KK is a bad boy.. bad boy.. bad boy!!!! :P

@ keshi:

Thnx... Huuuuugggggggsssssss!!! :)

KK said...

I like being bad...thanx again Prithz....I win again!!! :)

prithz said...

@ kk:

Achuchoooo!!! Something is seriously wronng wid u!!! So desperate to win is it???

s0ulasylum said...

aiyyayayayayayaooooooooooo!!! ur doing my badnaami kk.. !!! :( such a nice n sweet n friendly n smiling person i am.. ;-) some other different picture of some lost n found rakshasi only u give to ur readers! heh! :-)

pri: totally girl! we rock! lol!:-)

KK said...

Prithz, Everyone runs behind win...not just me...Everyone is bad...they just dont like to show the bad side of theirs or agree that they are bad...
S0ul, I just cant lie like you...so I have to portray you as some lost n found rakshasi(whatever it means) only...truth is always bitter madam...

prithz said...

@ s0ulasylum and kk:

Hehe.. good fun goin on here i guess!!! Anyways... KK, i shall declare in my blog that u win, once u treat wid me with butterscotch icecream!!!! Cant u realise how "desperate" i am to eat butterscotch icecream??!! :P

KK said...

Things evade only when your desperate...eyarkaiyin iyathi...

s0ulasylum said...

kk: wht r ur trying to say??? :( u calling me a rakshasi????????????????

KK said...

Did I??? If I did I am happy that I did... :)

prithz said...

@ s0ulasylum & kk:

Way to go guys!!! 3 more comments and i'l have my first 50 comments post!!! :P

s0ulasylum said...

well then heres another from me..! :)apparently kk's upto no good and has indulged in name calling n all!! grr